Tragedy to Love

Familiar

I heard a beeping noise… beep beep beep. It haunted me. I knew it to well. I slowly peeled my eyes open. It was really bright in the hospital… room…. What. I looked down and my whole lower half was in a cast. I had needles in me, I panicked. I pressed the little red button and a nurse rushed in. “Sam you’re awake. Thank goodness.” She sighed. “What’s going on?” I asked confused. “Uh… you were in a car crash. You were rushed here immediately and given surgery.” “Where’s Niall?” Her face contorted as if she was thinking. “Oh the boy you arrived here with!” She walked over to a curtain and pulled it back. There sat Niall in the bed, so pale. Almost lifeless. He had a bandage wrapped around his head and a cast on his arms.

“Niall!” I called hoping he would answer. The nurse just gave me a sympathetic look. “Niall babe, wake up.” Nothing. I tried to get up but there was a sharp pain from my stomach down. “Sam you can’t move love, just stay. I need to get the doctor. He has some things to tell you…” She trailed off and walked out the room. “Niall please wake up for me.” I said in a hushed tone. He didn’t even budge. I felt my eyes well up with tears. What happened last night…

“Hello Sam, Doctor. Reuben. I have a few things to discuss with you.” A tall man with dark hair said coming in the room. “No, is Niall going to be okay?” I asked attempting to sit up. “He will be fine. Should be waking up soon.” He smiled at me. I sighed relieved and focused on the news the doctor had to tell me. “Well… the place of impact was your lower region as you can see. Uh, basically… I’m so sorry… but you won’t be able to have children.” He said his eyes flushed with sorrow. Never. What will Niall say? He won’t want to be with someone who can’t have kids… I couldn’t even speak. “When the car crashed you were slammed into the front dash board. There was glass everywhere and well the impact was extremely hard. I am so sorry.” He said the last part barely above a whisper. I just shut my eyes and leaned my head back. I heard the doctor walk out of the room.

What will Niall think? We were going to get married… have a child. I would hope it was a girl so I could spoil her. He would hope it was a boy to play football with. Turns out they were twins just like Rosie and Harry’s. Except ours were well ours… The boy named Liam and the girl Lily. I would watch them grow up. Watch Niall walk down the aisle with my beautiful baby… well now grown girl. One day hopefully have grandchildren. Tell my son how I was so proud of him for doing good, for taking care of his sister. But that can never happen.

I opened my eyes and wiped away the new formed tears. “I’m so sorry.” I whispered to Niall. All of a sudden the door opened and in trailed Louis, Liam and Zayn. Louis rushed over to me and hugged me. “Louis.” I cried staining his shirt. “Shhh.” He hushed rubbing my back.

“What did they say about Niall?” Liam asked coming closer.

“They said he would be okay, probably wake up soon.” I smiled a little bit at the thought of my Niall being okay.

“That’s good…” Liam trailed off looking over at Niall.

“Are you okay?” Zayn piped up. I looked down at the cast around my lower half and squeezed my eyes shut. “The doctor said when… when we crash I was impacted in the lower region… hard. The result of that being… I can’t… I won’t ever be able to have children. I looked up and all three boys had different expressions. Liam, his eyes were filled with sorrow and sympathy. Louis, he was in awe, like he didn’t believe me. Zayn just stood there with a blank stare.

“Sam…” Liam began but I cut him off.

“It’s okay.” I said my tone low. I heard sheets ruffling and looked over to see Niall waking up. Immediately a huge smile appeared on my face. “Niall… Niall!” I called smiling. He looked over at me and squinted then a small smile played on his lips.

“Sam… are you okay?” He asked his voice hoarse. He attempted to stand up but he just laid back down and held his hand to his head.

“Niall don’t stand up, I’m okay.” I told him not taking my eyes off him. He looked down at his arms examining the casts. “You need water.” I reached over to the table beside my bed and poured a cup of water. “Zayn, would you help me up?” Zayn nodded and walked over to me.

“Uh Sam maybe it would be better if I gave it to Niall.” Liam suggested. “No I want to.” I glared at him. My cast started by my belly button and ended mid-thigh. Almost like a pencil skirt, weird. I placed my arm around Zayns neck and he placed his around my waist. I winced in pain as I took the first step. “Sam please sit back down.” Niall pleaded.

“No.” I said bluntly. I continued walking slowly. Once over at Niall’s bed Zayn helped me sit down next to Niall. I held the cup of water to his lips helping him drink it. Once he was finished I placed the empty cup beside him. We kind of just stared at each other for a little before the door opened again. In walked Harry with a weak smile on his face. He must’ve still been here with Rosie and the babies.

“Hey.” I smiled turning my head to see him.

“How are you guys?” He asked coming over and giving me a hug.

“Better.” Niall laughed dryly. We all sat in the room a little longer chatting. The boys were trying to just get our minds off the accident.

“Attention all guests visiting hours are over.” A lady announced over the loud speakers. The boys said their goodbyes as they left the room leaving only me and Niall. “Come here.” He smiled. I scooted closer to him on the bed. “Closer I want to tell you something.” I leaned in closer so our foreheads were touching, I started to giggle. “What?” He laughed.

“Oh nothing… So what did you need to tell me?” I questioned.

“Oh right… I love you.” He leaned up quickly and connected his soft pink lips to mine. I pulled away and looked into his blue eyes.

“I love you too.” At that moment I wanted to tell him about what the doctor had told me. I just couldn’t… I’d wait for another time, another day when it felt right. Niall moved over in the bed and patted beside him. I swung my legs up so I was sitting up in the bed. I slowly laid down next to him.
“Uh Niall… I don’t think this is going to work.” I laughed as we both squished into the small bed and my IV pulled on my arm. “I have an idea.” He said raising his eyebrows. He got up slowly out of bed and made his way over to mine. I looked at him weird, trying to figure out what his idea was. He started to push the bed toward his along with moving the machines my needles were attached to. Once he got it close enough to his he took off the one side rail and did the same to his so the beds were connected. I moved myself over to my bed immediately feeling relief in my arm where the IV had been tugging at. Niall walked back over to his bed. I laid down and looked over at him.

“Goodnight beautiful.” He whispered kissing my hand.

“Goodnight Niall.” He held my hand even though it was extremely difficult with his casts. I fell asleep soon after thanks to the comforting circles Niall was rubbing on my hand. I couldn’t help but keep my mind from wondering over to what Niall will do when he finds out that I can’t have children…