Tragedy to Love

Understanding

After we released from our embrace he kind of just stared at me. “What?” I giggled looking down at my socks.

“Uh nothing. Let’s go to bed, I’m tired.” He mumbled grabbing my hand. I followed him down the hall and into our bedroom next to the nursery. I walked over to the bed and slipped under the covers as Harry got changed.

“It’s cold in here. Can you turn on the heat babe?” I shivered curling into a tighter ball. He nodded and walked over to the heater turning it up a bit more. He smiled and slipped into bed next to me wrapping his arms around my waist pulling me close. I sighed happily at the feeling of lying beside him.  He placed a light kiss on my forehead and mumbled something but I had already closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep.

*

I was awoken up by the sound of cry’s which made me want to cry. I physically did not think I could get up. I had absolutely no strength left in me, I was done. Harry stirred in his sleep probably hearing the noise as well. “I got it.” I muttered his voice groggy. He stood up and stretched before walking out into the hall.

Did he really just get up at 3am to take care of two crying babies? He really was trying. I smiled to myself as he had already showed he would be keeping his promise.

It’s been about 15 minutes now and Harry still wasn’t back. I decided to go see if he was okay. I tip toed down the hall and peeked in the room. He was sitting in the chair with Jonathan and Darcy cradled in each of his arms.  He was humming something to them and they were  looking up at him in awe.

“Isn’t she lovely...” Harry sang lowly. I leaned against the door looking at the him admiring this precious moment. It reminded me of my dad and I’s relationship.  I closed my eyes and sighed hearing his beautiful voice.

“Isn’t he handsome…” He sang laughing a bit. I giggled to myself as the two babies cracked a tiny smile. Eventually both their eyes fluttered shut leaving them sound asleep.

“Let me help you.” I smiled walking into the room. He looked up at me a bit shocked that he hadn’t noticed me standing there. I took Jonathan from his arms and placed him gently into the crib. I smiled down at him as he moved around a bit trying to get comfy. I placed the little blue elephant in his arms and he nestled his little pink cheek against it.

I looked over to see Harry looking down at Darcy with that little sparkle of love in his eyes.

“Come on let’s get back to bed.” I whispered hugging him from behind. He sighed and turned around leaving the room.

Sam’s P.O.V.

I sat up in bed the sun shining brightly through the window. It looked like it was going to be a nice day, yay! I got up and took a quick shower before Niall woke up. I stepped in the shower letting the warm water wash over my skin. I rinsed my hair with shampoo before grabbing my towel and wrapping it around me. I walked into the bedroom picking out my outfit for the day. A pair of red pants, a grey sweater and a little beanie as an accessory. I walked over to the bed and picked up the necklace on my night stand putting it around my neck. It was a necklace Niall had gotten me. More like a locket with a picture of him and I inside.

“Oh morning babe. You should’ve woken me up.” Niall said in his groggy yet sexy morning voice.

“You looked tired so I figure I’d let you sleep in.” I answered smiling lightly.

“Oh well thanks… now let me get dressed and we will go out for breakfast like I said last night.” He stood up and walked into the bathroom.

I completely forgot about breakfast today. We were supposed to talk about it but I didn’t want to. I wanted to take it back and make like it never happened. Sadly I just couldn’t.

Niall eventually walked out of the bathroom and got ready so we could leave. “Ready babe?” He asked as I stood at the door with my hands in my coat pocket. I nodded and walked out leaving him to trail behind. The walk there was quiet, basically me just kicking a rock down the sidewalk looking up only when I needed to.

Niall stopped and when I realized he had I turned around to see what was wrong. “Why did you stop?” I asked scrunching my nose up.

“Why are you being so quiet and ignoring me? You won’t even hold my hand…” He sighed looking at me with hurt in his eyes. I sighed walking over to him and hugging him tightly.

“I’m sorry I’m just not myself lately.” I huffed burying my face into his chest.

“I noticed. It’s okay though.” He kissed the top of my head and I pulled away. I reached down for his hand and he gladly took mine in his. We walked the rest of the way chatting a little bit.

When we got there Niall pushed the door open and it ringed letting everyone there know someone came in.

The waitress sat us at the table and gave us our menus. I just ordered a plain bagel and a coffee whereas Niall went all out.

“So how have you been feeling lately?” Niall asked folding his hands together.

“Better, much better.” I sighed smiling.

“Good I don’t want to see you sick… or sad.” He grabbed my hands and rested his on top of mine. I smiled at his warm touch.

“Niall… I know you said to stop apologizing but I’m sorry-“

“Then stop apo-“

“Let me finish.” I huffed. “I don’t think you understand how much it hurts me to know I can’t give you that son you’d play baseball in the yard with or the daughter you would protect from heart break and boys. I’m the only person in the way of that. I’ve always wanted kids and it kills ME to know I can’t have any.” I sighed looking out the window.

“I don’t need any of that. You’re all I need. I don’t care if we never have kids! As long as I’m with you that’s all I care about.” Niall said turning my chin to face him. His blue eyes sparkling as tears pinched the edge of my eyes.

“I love you so much.” I choked out getting up and moving to give him a hug. I wrapped my arms around him and he pulled me close rubbing my back.

“I love you too babe.” He whispered in my ear. My tears stained his white sweater but he didn’t care one bit. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, Niall didn’t care AND he still loved me. That’s all I could ask for right now.