i
i had a best friend
who taught me
how to smile with my teeth
and reminded me of
what my laugh sounded like
she was not afraid
to hold me at my ugliest times
because inside, past her sunshine disguise
she carried darkness too
she loved me
but i could not love her
she was not you
ii
i met a girl with ice eyes
who glowed like a crescent moon
she was a gem
who only saw a stone
unaware of her own beauty
that cut the breath right out of their lungs
she locked her heart up in a cage
so no one could break it again
she almost loved me
but i could not love her
she was not you
iii
there was a boy
as faithful as gravity
he always picked me up
when i fell
he built me up to be his world
but he was but a warm mouth to me
i loved him
but i was not in love
because he was not you
iv
i have stared into
the face of beauty and wonder
i have witnessed a smile
brighter than the core of the sun
eyes deeper than the vastest ocean
a soul that conquers death and laughs in its face
you
so how could i love anyone else?
