A Tad Unhinged

Chapter 16: Side Note

MARCO

I slide the note over to them.
"This is everything?" They question.
I deadpan.
I watch as they skim it. I did it, I wrote down everything that happened since Star came to earth to right now. I refused to tell them the story, they kept staring at me like it was all my fault.
"How did the princess get to this Earth hos-pi-tall?" One of the guards snaps.
I motion for them to give me back the paper and pen which they do. I quickly write "I took Star's dimensional scissors and made a portal to here and they took her in, dipshits" and hand it back.
It had been only a day since Eclipsa had risen and nothing had happened to Star. She was just there. Alone. Silent. Dead.
I could feel my heart being crushed, I couldn't think like that. Star was alive Star was alive Star was alive.
Getting up from my table, the two Mewni guards stare at me and watch me closely as I leave. I wonder down the hallway, staring into nothingness. Nurses and doctors pushed past me but I don't even register what's going on. Star was lost and hopelessness began to fill me up.
Hopelessness. I guess that was another emotion that I bottled up. Or, how did Eclipsa put it? Behind a door with Toffee? He was gone, which meant any lasting magic I might've had is gone for good, no hope of getting it back. If only I'd done something sooner.
I look down at my star-scarred hand. If only if only if only. I felt sick to my stomach.
"Marco!" Someone gasped. I look up to Janna with swelled and red eyes from crying. I stand in the doorway of Star's room feeling every emotion and none.
"Hey Marco." Peter peers around the curtain to see me. "We came to see you."
"I mean we didn't see you at Jackie's..." Kai's voice trails off.
"Funeral." I finish. "Yeah I know. I didn't come." I'd found out how and why Star killed Jackie last night.
"Oh well..." Janna looks between Star and me. "We're really sorry about all this."
"Thanks. You can leave now." I deadpan. I didn't want them here, not with me and especially not with Star.
"Well we just came to help." Kai plays with her multicolor hair. "In anyway we can."
"Than leave." I say as I walk into the room. "That would be the best."
"Are you sure?" Peter asks, taking a step towards me.
I shoot a look at him and he stops in his tracks. "Yes. Leave."
"Marco we know you're hurting-" Janna
"I said leave." I look at her as tears swell in my eyes. "Please just leave me alone."
"You need your friends." Kai says like she controls me. "You shouldn't be alone at a time like this-"
"I SAID LEAVE!" I scream. "LEAVE RIGHT NOW." My chest squeezes my heart and I grab it. Calm Marco, you can't freak out again. Star isn't dead.
The room is silent.
Janna starts, "If that's what you really want-"
"It is." I walk towards them.
"Okay." Janna pushes by me. "Let's go guys."
Kai and Peter walk past me and leave without another word. I look next to me to see Star still asleep, a new heart rate monitor beeping at a slow, nerve wrecking speed. I could feel my body heating up. She's not dead she's not dead she's not dead.
"Star." I lean next to her bed. "Please wake up."
I had to do something.

STAR

I'd began to fall apart.
The blackness reached out and grabbed a piece of me and pulled it away, putting it somewhere. And every time it did this, I felt more and more sick. More and more tired. Death seemed imminent, creeping towards me every moment.
Marco was right, time sucked. I couldn't tell how long this had been happening or how long it hadn't been and I had no idea when it would stop. Maybe soon, maybe after an eternity. All I knew was I was going to die at some point.
The world around me kept picking at me, pulling apart pieces of my soul and my being and crushing it into more magic for Eclipsa. Every part of me was for her to use, every fiber of my being was used to keep alive and give her whatever she wanted. And Marco... his death was being used too. It's what revived her it's what gave her her magic it's what gave her life. She took hers because of something so long ago, so far away from me yet I was paying the price.
Pick.
I was dying very very soon.
And maybe I was okay with that. I killed Marco. I killed Jackie. I made everyone's life miserable.
Maybe I deserved to die.