come back // joshler

9: Tyler

Josh was gay..?

In what universe?

How?

What?

"I h-have to go use the, um, b-bathroom", Tyler stuttered, his throat dry. Before Josh could answer Tyler ran out of the room and into the bathroom in the hallway. He locked the door and started pacing back and forth, his thoughts racing faster than lightning.

Does this mean Josh had a boyfriend?

God, that would be worse than Josh having a girlfriend. Tyler sighed and hit his hand against the counter, looking up at his face in the mirror. He was ugly, he knew that, but could Josh maybe like him?

No, he was just getting his hopes up and being delusional. Stop thinking if he likes you or not, Tyler. You're an idiot. He was just a friend. He'd never like and want to date someone like you. Isn't it clear? He literally stopped talking to you because he thought you'd be mad at him for being gay.

Wait.

Did Josh think he was against gay people..?

Fuck. Was that the reason he abandoned him, he thought he was a homophobe? Tyler groaned and left the bathroom, walking back to the living room. Josh was still on the couch, but he was sobbing and shaking. Tyler sighed quietly and walked over to him, sat down on the couch and fiddled with his shirt.

"I-I'm s-sorry", Josh mumbled. "I k-know i-it's weird.."

"No, it's okay", Tyler said and looked at Josh. Josh looked back, and Tyler smiled slightly. "Why were you so scared though..?"

Josh looked away and started sobbing harder. "I-I.."

"Please tell me. Was it something I said?"

"N-no, I was s-so scared y-you'd h-hate me that I-"

Tyler cut off Josh by hugging him tightly. Josh sighed loudly and pressed his head against Tyler's shoulder. Tyler carefully rubbed Josh's back in an attempt to get Josh to calm down. Josh mumbled something against Tyler's shoulder, and Tyler lifted Josh up from there.

"What'd you say?"

"N-nothing", Josh stuttered and blushed, turning his head down. Tyler sighed a bit, and Josh shrugged.

"Josh?"

"I-it was nothing, I s-swear.."

"Look me in the eyes and say it."

Josh shook his head, and Tyler pulled him back into a hug.

"Please?"

"N-no, Tyler, i-it wasn't anything i-important."

"So it was something?"

"N-no, I-I, no.."

"Joshy.."

Josh shook his head against Tyler's shoulder and mumbled something, but Tyler couldn't make up what it was.

"I won't hear you if you speak against my shoulder, Josh", Tyler said, and Josh lifted his head up, not looking at Tyler. "What is it?"

"I-I missed y-you, Tyler.."

Tyler smiled at Josh genuinely and pulled him back into his arms. "I missed you too, Josh."