Hard to Love 2 (Reader x Severus Snape) COMPLETED

Chapter 4: New and Hurt

Erin's POV

I saw scissors on the end of the sink.. I hurt myself with them... I wasn't thinking and I just... I'm disappointed in myself.. after that.. I cut my hair.. well.. I gave myself bangs.. New.. I wanted new..

I changed into a white button up shirt and black leggings.. Remus and I started to head out.. I had to see him today.. Severus.. I don't think I will be able to stand having to sit next to him

At the meeting

"Hello, Erin." I heard from behind me, I turned around to see George Weasley

"Hey." I smiled

"I'm sad we won't get to see each other this year at school. I'll miss you." he said

"I'll miss you too, George." I said

"Well, we should probably get in there.." He said stepping closer to me.

"Yeah.. we should." I said, we were so close..

Finally he leaned in and kissed me, I had my hands against his chest.. and I kissed back.. I think I was just angry with myself for what I did, and what happened with Severus..

After a couple minutes, someone coughed, we both stopped and looked in the doorway, it was Remus and Severus

"Remus, Professor Snape, I'm sorry." I said

"Come on, were about to start." Remus said and walked away

Severus stood there looking at me, then at my arm, "I'd clean that up if I were you, Ms. Smith." then left

"What?" Then I looked at my arm, the sleeve of my white shirt was now red... shit..

George rolled up my sleeve.. "Rin.. why?.."

"I was sad, a lot of stuff has happened.. I miss my mum.." I said..

"Erin..." He kissed me softly.. then healed my arm "Better?"

"Better.. thank you.." I smiled weakly..

He started to unbutton my shirt... then took it off, he kissed my neck gently, then he stopped and took off his jacket and put it around me.

"I'll give you the shirt once I get it cleaned."

I smiled and nodded, we walked to the meeting and sat down.. of course I was by Severus..

Once it was over, everyone left and I was cleaning up the table and everything.. or so I thought everyone left. The door slammed shut and I screamed

I looked up and it was Severus, "Sorry, Professor. You scared me.."

"Are you daft, Smith?! I'm not worth hurting yourself.." He said softly

"You hurt me emotionally! You don't know how it feels, you probably never loved me anyway! I'm just a student, remember?" I exclaimed

"I did love you.. so don't-.." he started to say but I cut him off

"Like bloody hell you did! You wouldn't have left me if you did!" I yelled

"Smith.. we can't..." he said

"Bull shit. Whatever, I'm over this.. it's done.. you made your decision"

"I did.. I don't regret it." he said.. I could see the hurt in his eyes..

"Screw you, Severus. Don't act like you ever loved me. I knew you didn't." I said

"I'll leave then."

"Fine, go, I don't care."

"Goodbye, Smith." Then he left..