My therapist called me survivor
Said I actually lived and survived it all
I can be grateful for that
But how am I a survivor?
I wasnt near death I just wished I was
I didn't survive I just ..left.
Walked away from the relationship.
Walked away from that house.
How am I a survivor?
I didn't survive
I relive my trama all the time
I hate being alone because alone is when my mind wonders
Wonders back to them
Back to him
Back to every shitty thing someone has done to me
I become stuck in my brain
Reliving it all
Sometimes I sit in my room and imagine all that could possibly happen in the future
How they could come back and hurt me
Will they find where I work?
Will they find me in school?
So no I am not a survivor.
I'm just a girl who escaped the situation but will never escape her mind
