I was a woman
At age 10
Raising a newborn
Cleaning a house
Listening to her problems and trying to help fix her
But she
She was supposed to help fix me
I was a woman
At age 15
When I slit open my wrist between potty training because the stresses of being a mom were so hard
I was called worthless
Yet I found my worth in late night bedtime kisses while we set his clothes out for school
I was a woman
At age 17
When I quit cutting my wrist because it was a bad example for the now 7 year old kid
Helping him learn to read was my pride in joy
I was a woman
I was
I am a child
At age 18
Living in a womans body
Told to act my age
Told to do good in college
This is your life
You are paying for this
But I am just a child
Tired and afraid
Now my sleep isnt lost because of a child it is the night terrors of her
It is the PTSD of them
I was a woman
But now
I am a child
And I dont know what to do
Or who I am anymore
