Everything was to bright
To happy
To "how can you be in a bad mood when the world is like this"
And I hated it
I hated how blue the sky was in the summer
I hated how warm the sun felt on my skin
I hated that everything around me was good but my brain wasnt
I was filled with trauma
Filled with pain
Filled with things I knew I would never fully heal from
But then I met you
The sky got less blue
The sun dimmed
Everything seemed to be less perfect
Because you were
You stole the suns shine and used it in your laugh
Stole the blue from the sky and used it in your speech
You made even the stars seem dull compared to the sparkle in your eyes when you speak about things you love
And you told me you were filled with trauma too
And suddenly I understood that just because something is beautiful doesnt mean it wasnt still hurt
And I thanked the sun for burning my skin because it was better than shutting out the light
I thanked the blue sky for being blue with me
I thanked the stars for letting their light travel far enough to stay awake with me when I couldnt sleep
And now I'm thanking you for explaining the world in a way that made sense
And for showing me that just because something is beautiful doesnt mean it doesnt hurt
And just because im hurt doesn't mean I'm not beautiful
