A Story of a Sad Little Boy

Chapter 15: Falling outs

" Everything felt fine when I was half of a pair, and through no fault of mine theres no other half there" - Michael in the Bathroom,  Be More Chill. 
   Now you may be wondering why the introduction of this chapter is a musical quote.  And to you person in the back.  Yes you in the third seat surrounded by empty seats because nobody reads this book anymore.  BECAUSE WHY THE FUCK NOT!  So recently I haven't been the best.  Super busy between state chorus practice and play rehearsal.  Not even mentioning the pounds of homework in every class. But that's besides the point,  since Girl Scout Cookie season is over and I finally have a social life.  So my friends,  there pretty fricken neat.  Their all amazing.  As the quote says,  I couldn't currently relate more.  Me and one of my friends we're really close.  But we've drifted super far apart in the last week or so.  We just stopped talking.  Before any chance in class we'd partner up or talk but since the new semester started,  things have changed.  Now at first I just blew it off as "oh well" But as time went on it happened more freaklently.  Now I'm a jealous person,  we all are,  that's how humans work.  But I was jealous and angry also a little sad.  I am like a puppy,  if you feed me and be nice I will follow you loyally forever.  So I kinda felt betrayed, like someone stabbed me in the stomach and said oh well then went frolicking  with my blood enemy.  Everything was fine when it was just us but as time had passed and I started to be forgotten and forced away.  Now I have other friends but none as close as her.  Now I know it's probably not my fault.  People make new friends and start to loose connections with old friends to make new friends.  That's something that just happens. But it could be my fault,  I'm not exactly the nicest and as much as I try it's not enough. Lately everyone has been pretty cold shouldered to me.  Or maybe I'm just exaggerating.  Falling outside are something that happen to all friends.  The bestest of friends survive it.  It's the same circumstances as when I wrote this book.  I was mad at a friend so I rage wrote this bookmark a few chapters in I talked to them and boom a few days later everything goes to shit.  If that happens again I don't think I can mentally survive.  But I've decided that since no ones going to read this anywaysanyways,  Im just going to write. What the quote is saying is that everything was okay until he was betrayed and left alone because of nothing he did.  I honestly have never related more to a quote in my life.  Like I was okay until I was left alone. WE'VE TALKED ABOUT THIS DON'T LEAVE ME ALONE TO FEEL!  so yeah,  sorry for this rant but you are reading this for a reason.

THANK YOU FOR READING.  PLEASE MAKE SURE TO VOTE AND SHARE THIS BOOK WITH FRIENDS OR IF YOUR ALONE LIKE ME,  A RANDOM STRANGER.  HAVE FUN BUDDY BOYS AND MAKE SURE NOT TO BURN DOWN THE HOUSE WHEN YOU MAKE A SALAD.  BE YOURSELF BECAUSE EVERYONE ELSE IS AN IDIOT.  THANKS BUDDY BOYS- GRIFF

I am a plant.  Also me and my friend (different friend)  are writing a song!!!  I'll post something about it when it's done.  Cool beans.  Also I have grown my dad shirt collection time now having 4 dad shirts not just 1! -Griff

On the plant thing don't ask