You Could Be Mine

Breaking The Chains

Slash walked me to the bus, and even carried my bags for me. The walk was silent and we couldn't look at each other, but I decided to break the silence. "So uh, what was that kiss about earlier?" I asked forcing myself to look at him. He smiled a little "I don't know, actually. I just wanted to see what would happen if I did it. When we came back and I saw you gone I thought it was my fault." He said as he looked up at me. "Why would you think it was your fault?" I asked as we walked up to the bus I opened the door and let him go in first.

"I just came in here and kissed you, I thought it freaked you out." He said laughing a little as he set down the bags. I laughed "I was stunned, but it was kind of nice..." I trailed off then cleared my throat "but a little weird, don't you hate me?" I finished changing my tone. He sat down and looked at me "I never hated you, I only argued with you because you are cute when you argue." I looked at he was crazy. "You mean you fought with me on purpose?" I walked towards him kind of upset. "Sometimes it just happened and some yes it was on purpose."

"You fucking asshole!" I yelled at him then grab a pillow and throw it at him he was lucky I didn't throw my fist. He then got up and held my wrists. "I only did it because I really liked you and tried to deny it." he said looking down at me. "Or are you sure you're not just drunk and lonely because you dumped that slut." I said I knew I would regret it the moment it left my mouth. Slash looked at me and then let go of my wrists. He started to laugh "good thing you are leaving tomorrow. I knew I shouldn't have ever thought of you that way. You may be worse than Maureen." He said that grabbing his hat and he left the bus.

I stood there for a minute and then decided I shouldn't do this. What was wrong with me. I ran out of the bus to find him, but he was no where to be found. I can't believe I just did that. I went back into the bus and grabbed my things. I wrote a note to Axl

"I'm sorry. I needed to leave earlier. I can't do it anymore. If you ever are in New York, look me up. I'll write the building I live in on the back and maybe I'll see you again someday.
I love you Axl, great to see you
Love, Pamela"

March 1992

Since I last saw them it was only a day ago it was finally March 1st and I was home. Alone. I started work in two days and I had absolutely nothing to do. As I was putting my new clothes away I noticed I accidentally packed Axls shirt. I hid it in the back of my closet, I wanted no memory of what happened between Slash and I. I turned on my tv and MTV was on I didn't remember turning that channel on, but I ignored it and continued on my way.

I stopped dead in my tracks when I hear Axl's voice ring out in my bedroom. I turned around to see the November Rain music video playing. I dropped what I was doing, literally, and started to cry. Once it got to Slash's guitar solo I bolted for the remote and turned it off then threw the remote across the room. After that I collapsed on the floor and my head fell into my hands. My mind was racing I couldn't believe I let my mind get in the way of my heart.

I sat like that for about ten minutes then I hear a knock on my door. I got up wiped my eyes and looked through the peep hole. It was Slash.
"Fuck" I muttered under my breath. He must've read the note I left for Axl, or the band is outside and they sent Slash up. I immediately said "damn it Axl!" in my mind, this was one hundred percent his doing. I took a deep breath then opened the door.

Slash didn't have his hat on, he wore jeans, leather jacket, white t-shirt, and his boots. I didn't say anything I just looked at him. I could see the guilt in his eyes, and I could sense it. "Can I come in?" He asked in a quiet voice. Without thinking it through I nodded and moved aside for him. He entered my apartment slowly, debating whether this was a good idea or not. I closed the door and looked at him "what are you doing here?" I said still standing near the door. He moved into the door way of the living room, he had pushed his hands into his pockets.

"I came here to apologize. I shouldn't have said you were like Maureen, in fact you're better than her." He said standing his ground after saying that he looked somewhat better but not much. "You are better than her in every way. Mind, soul, and..." he paused for a moment and then finished "body." I saw him looking at me. I knew he meant it. "You shouldn't be the one sorry, I shouldn't have called you a fucking asshole. I also shouldn't have fought you on any of that." I said looking down guilt started to sink in.

It was silent for what seemed like forever, until he said "I should go, the bands waiting for me downstairs." He started towards the door and I didn't want him to leave. Not like this. I had to say something. Anything. "Slash.." I started but words wouldn't come out. He stopped and turned around to face me. "Yea?" He replied, he seemed as if he hoped for me to say something too.

"I have something I need to tell you, but I don't really know how to..." I said stumbling on my words. What was wrong with me!?!? I'm screaming in my head. I'm usually so good with words, but right now I'm failing tremendously. "Ugh why is this so hard!" I said out loud and he looked at me confused "why is what so hard?" I turned around not facing him and took a deep breath. "I-I love you, I have always loved you."  I paused and turned around to look at him "I always thought you hated me so I never said anything." Before I could say anything else he walked over to me slowly.

He smiled a little and said "I could never hate you. The moment I saw you I loved you. I was always jealous that you and Axl had such a close relationship and I was never seen as anything other then an asshole to you." I looked at him and I smiled. "You are not an asshole. You're a handsome, talented, great guy. I just wished I could've said something earlier." He placed his hands on my face and he smirked "well it's never too late." He said then pressed his lips to mine and I felt like I was in the correct place.

We were kissing for a long time we soon made it to the couch and our bodies were entwined.
We didn't get that far because we heard a knock on the front door. We were breathing heavily and he kept kissing my neck, but the knocking came again. "I better get that." I said going to get up but he pulled me back down for another kiss. I tried to pull away, but he wouldn't let me go, I practically dragged him to the door with me.

I looked through the peep hole and standing there was the band. "Put your shirt on" I joked with him and he did so. I opened the door and they came barreling in. "What's going on?" Slash demanded to know why our love session was dismissed. Matt shut the door quickly and replied "Maureen is out there. She is trying to find you." He looked at me and then locked the door. My mind just exploded.