anatomy || awsten knight

chapter eighteen

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AWSTEN

What do I say?

She asked me, am i okay?

I didn't know the answer, but I also did know the answer. I felt as though being asked this, my whole world and surroundings would crumbling into little but nothing, if I gave an
answer.

But if I told her, it might all go away.

She looked into my eyes, her head tilting in a questioning manner.
I stared at her back, trying to think of something or anything.

"I don't know." I blurted out, not smiling but not frowning.

"Do y-ou wanna talk about it?"
She asked, smiling hopefully.
I took the offer into consideration, I looked at her as I thought, taking in certain features of her face.

"I think you should go." I whispered,       almost shouting it.
She frowned, but quickly picked up her purse from the side of the bed, throwing it over her shoulder and waking towards the door.

"I know it's hard to talk to someone, but I hope I can be that someone."
She smiled, taking my hand in hers, and taking a pen from her bag, as she began to write something on my hand.

"It's my number." She said, giving me a small glance in the eyes, before leaving the room.

shit.

My heart sunk, realising what I had said, and immediately feeling regret.
I groaned in frustration, rolling my eyes and walking to my bed and laying on it.

I had an opportunity to tell someone, but I completely shut them out.

I sighed, letting my eyes close as I let my body basically fall into itself as I softly fell asleep, not even aiming to do so.

"I love you." She whispered into my ear, letting her hands wrap around my neck so she was holding onto me, while I was sitting and she was standing.

We were in back room of the door bus, I just finished playing our session on warped.

"I love you too." I whispered back, bringing my hands to her waist, and looking her in the eyes.

I couldn't see her face too well, but it was as though her face was a blur and her body was clear and perfect.

I began to lean in to kiss her lips, but letting hers softly press on mine before I harshly pushed mine against hers. I smiled into the kiss.
She smiled back, separating our lips, making me wince at the loss.
She smirked before looking in my eyes, hers filled with lust.

She sat on my lap, keeping her arms around my neck.
She smirked again, leaving me confused but excited.
She began to kiss my neck, sucking on parts of it to see where my sensitive spot was.

Pulling on the skin with her teeth, she found it.
Leaving me to let out a groan.

"Hazel."

I quickly jumped up from my bed, breathing heavily.
Shit, Hazel?
It was just a dream.

"Hey, where's Hazel?" Geoff asked, as he came into my room, and sitting on the chair beside my bed.

"Oh, em- she had to go." I stuttered, still feeling weird from the dream.

"Oh okay." He sighed.

"Are you okay, you seem a bit-off?" He questioned, tilting his head, a concerned look appeared on his face.

I quickly panicked, my mind still spinning and feeling funny from the dream.
I felt my stomach fill with a nervous look before smiling as my phone beeped, letting all my emotions building up inside me, all let go,
feeling an off sense of relief.

"I'm fine, just a bit hot." I said, beginning to breathe heavily to make my excuse believable - enough.

"Sure ya are, Aws." Geoff winked at me, giggling as he left the room.

I sighed as he close the door, feeling more weight being lifted off my shoulder as he left.
I looked at my phone, remembering I had gotten a text a few minutes ago, begging to check it.

unknown: i'm sorry :(

me: who is this and how did you get my number?

unknown: its hazel, i asked geoff for
it.

me: oh okay, what are you sorry for?

     hazel: about earlier, i shouldn't have said anything, i didn't mean to make you upset, you seemed so upset this morning and i thought i should ask what's wrong.

me: its okay.

hazel: okay, that's good.

me: i'm sorry about earlier too, i didn't mean to get mad at you.

I sighed staring at my phone as I waited for a reply, not getting one.
I groaned in frustration, realising she probably hates me now.

were we ever friends anyway?

I N S T A G R AM

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a/n:
hey sorry this chapter is short, i couldn't think of too much to write for this because it was segment of that day if you get me.

i hoped you liked this chapter, especially since i made it awsten's point of view ( i won't do this often i don't like switching points of views)

there could be mistakes in there, i didn't look to well oops...

also it was my birthday today and it was kinda sad because mrc broke up on this day rip :((