anatomy || awsten knight

chapter twenty

{^song^}

"Otto, I'm not ready." I panicked, just as I finished packing the last thing in my suitcase.

"Why?" He asked, placing his hand on my shoulder, realising I was shaking.

"Because i'm not," I said. "I've
never done this before." My hands were shaking as I turned around to face Otto.

"Hazel, don't worry, trust me." He reassured, smiling as his eyes glistened with a weird look of admiration.

I smiled back at him, taking his words into thought and consideration.
I was so nervous, it was hard to concentrate, or even breathe.
I felt a panic attack wash over me, but I was able to keep it under control.

"Thank you, for coming over." I sighed, smiling at him as I threw my backpack around my shoulders.

"Don't worry," He hummed softly, suddenly giving me hug. It caught me off guard, but I eventually loosened up to it, and wrapped my arms around him.

"I know it's hard to talk to someone," He parted from the hug, giving me a awkward smile as he did.

"But, when we're on tour, together, just know I'm always here to talk." I smiled at him, a tear rising in my eye, but I quickly sniffed it up before thanking him happily.

"Thank you, so much." I said sniffing, which Otto laughed at. I pulled a fake angry face at him and placed my
arms on my hips, until that failed and I began to laugh with him.

I zipped my suitcase, dragging it along the floor seeing as it
was way to heavy to even carry. I slipped up the handle and began to wheel it to the door, reaching it and waiting for Otto to join me at the door.

"You have, a lot." He mumbled, opening his eyes wide in shock and humour.

"What did you expect." I rolled my eyes in sarcasm.

•••

"Hey." Geoff smiled, opening his arm.
I smiled before running into them.

"Hi." I smiled happily, faking it slightly, nerves still filling my mind and my body.

"You okay?" He asked, giving me a sort of unsure smile as he separated from the hug. I smiled at him and shook my head, pretending to act confused.

"Yeah, I'm fine." I smiled happily, but quickly stopping realising how much I was smiling and how dumb I must look.

He nodded, smiling back at me, this time being sure, which surprised me, I'm not usually that believable.

We were outside their house, along with some huge tour buses and a group of people from the record label. I smiled as I looked around at the tour buses and everyone who was here, everything felt surreal. I smiled to myself, while looking around.

I spotted Awsten at the door to one of the buses, he was on his phone.
I began to walk towards him, knowing I'd regret my decision later.

"Um, hey." I smiled awkwardly, waiting for him to look up from his phone.

"Oh-um, hey." He smiled back, a weird look on his face. Before I could say anything back or even try to start a conversation someone began to talk.