Cared for you

Sixteen

*NOT EDITED*

Even though I kept telling myself everything between me and Justin was over I couldn't help and feel bad that he had seen me with Quincy.

To be honest I wasn't really looking for a relationship with anybody.

Not with Justin

And definitely not with Quincy.

It was just nice to have some new company. And get my mind off of everything.

I mean I did just get out of a long term relationship with Michael. And then Justin appeared and everything just got hectic. I never meant to lead Justin on and hurt his feeling.

This was all such a disaster.

I felt bad about everything

I led Justin on and now I'm leading Quincy on.

Last night was great and all. We watched and exchanged some kisses here and there but I wasn't looking for anything serious with him.

So that's why after the movie was done I told him how I had just gotten out of a bad relationship and wasn't really looking for anything. And that we could be friends.

It was obvious that he was hurt by the way his dimples disappeared. And his eyes turned serious. I felt really bad but I had to do it.

I hope that we could at least be friends because he really was a nice guy and it would be great to hang out with him. But I don't think a relationship is a good idea.

Now all i has to do was call Justin but I'm kinda scared. Well I don't think scared is the right word. Nervous fits better. I know he was hurt. And I understand why that's why I have been sitting on the ground with my phone in my hands ready to press call on Justin's name but my fingers would freeze every time I tried pressing the call button.

Stop being such a baby Selena and just call him dammit

Letting out a deep breath I dialed his number and waited for him to pick up. The line rang a couple of times before his deep voice answered.

"Hello?"

I hesitated.

"Hello? Selena are you there?"

"Hi." I said awkwardly.

Cmon Selena this is Justin no need to be awkward.

I cleared my throat. "Um hi, Are you busy?" I asked.

"No is something wrong?" He asked worriedly.

That just made me feel even worse after everything I've done to him he still gets worried.

"I- i." Great now I'm getting all choked up.

"Are you okay?"

"I-I'm Fine. I just called because I wanted to say sorry."

"Sorry? What for?"

"About last night. I didn't mean to hurt you or anything."

"Sel-"

"But I also wanted to apologize for the last 2 months. I feel like I've been leading you on. And that was so wrong of me. I never intended for any of this to happen. I just feel really bad about everything. I mean I'm not the only one who's dealing with I break up. You just broke up with Corinna to. And you must be feeling bad about that and then on top of it all I've been leading you on. And I just never wanted to hurt you. I never want you to be sad. So I'm sorry."

"Selena. Calm down and take a deep breath."

I took a breath through my nose and let it out.

"Ok and first of all you didn't lead me on I was the one who came on to you."

"Don't make it sound like you raped me."

Way to go Selena.

"Sorry, bad joke?"

"Yes very bad joke. Second of all I may be hurt but it's not like I didn't see it coming. I mean I shouldn't have rushed anything. It's also my fault. And I know you never meant to hurt me. So don't be worried about."

"So You're not mad?"

"No sel I'm not. I'm just sad that you keep pushing me away. I just want to be there for you. And I know in the past I hurt you. God I hurt you so bad and I promised I wouldn't but I've changed and you can trust me this time."

Oh oh the tears were welling up

"That's the past now Justin. I know you've changed. I just want everything to be good with us. No awkwardness or whatever. I don't want to hurt you and I don't want you to be sad because of me. It makes me sad when you're sad. When you're happy I'm happy. So I'd like for you to stay happy."

"You make me happy selena. If we're friends or not you'll always make me happy."

"You make me happy to Justin."

"Well I'd hope so. Or else this conversation is kinda pointless."

That made me laugh. It felt nice to laugh

"Hey Listen Shawn's in town."

"Shawn! Oh my god how is he. I haven't seen him years."

"He's good. Since you haven't seen him so long how about me all meet for lunch. And bring Lindsay along. I think Shawn would love that. If you know what I mean."

"Linds lives in Jersey. About 45 minutes always. But I think I can get her in the city. She'll come running if she hears Shawn name."

"Alright so why don't we meet at 4:30 on 23rd ave. There's a new Italian restaurant that opened up."

"Ok see you then."

Hanging up the phone I felt a ton of bricks fall off of my shoulders. It was nice to finally have Everything cleared up.

AN: sooo I've finally updated after like a million years. And this chapter is More than 100 words. Lmao. Anyways hope y'all enjoy ;)