CHERYL'S POV
my eyelids pull open and i dont even need my eyes to adjust to the sunlights cutting through the room to know she's not there. she isnt in my arms or in the bed. and part of me was expecting this but i just wish it wasnt always like this.
i wish it didnt hurt as much as it does. why do i even think that maybe she will stay with me im so stupid. i make my cold body get out of the bed my feet walking on the bare dark wooden floors. i make my self go down the stairs and i pray that she didnt leave. i pray for her to stay and just be with me. i pray for her, just her.
she isnt in the kitchen or dinning room and i begin to panic.
why why why? why do i always let my self get into shit like this.
then i smell smoke. cigarette smoke.
i wonder out side and there she is standing bare foot with her toes in the dewy grass by the tall hedges with her two skinny fingers curled around the lit fag. the end burning orange as she places it in between her lips taking in another puff her eyes hiding away behind her eyelids as she pulls the cigarette away and lets the smoke spiral and twirl around her mouth and fade out into the surronding air and into the gray sky. the clouds trapping her underneath them the sky was painted sad. part of her face hidden by her long hair.
i have never seen her smoke before. there was something behind those eyes as she stared down at the cigarette in her hand. something deep, something bottled in the bottom of her soul. and i cant help to think that i cant help her.
"since when do you smoke?" i say quietly as i walk to her side. she doesnt look at me she just shrugs.
"you know.." i begin to talk wishing for her to look at me. "you have my favorite smile don't ruin it." i said lookin at the cigarette in her hands.
she looks up at me with those blessed eyes and weakly smiles. is it bad i re used what she said to me?
well it's true.
"but it reminds me of the taste of your lips."
my stomache turns and i dont know why. but im so fucking confused she cant just do that.
she looks down and raises the fag up to her lips in between her index and middle finger with her red painted nails in front of her face and puffs out the smoke. and i can almost feel the toxic smoke get in my eyes.
she looks back up to me and juts out her lip. i jut out mine and she hovers the rolled paper over my lips. and inhale it. i blow the smoke up and she sadly smiles.
she flicks the ash of the end and puts it out.
"im taking you out today remember?" she turns to me. her face just inches away from mine and her oily eyes seeping into mine. i crave her lips more than anything. and i just want to kiss her and press my lips hard against hers. but i know she wont be saved by my kiss.
"of course i remember." i whisper and she weakly smiles and turns her face way from me. and i stare at her and the sky and her kaleidoscope eyes. and her curves look so amazing with the glow of the gray blue sky.
"you ready?" she asks me fluttering her long eyelashes and gently tracing her hair line with her fingers.
"yeah." i breathe out and she smiles at me.
"nice ass." she put her hand on my butt softly patting it. and i blush and the other way neverously giggling. but i cant help liking her touching me. she taps her finger tips on the bottom of my chin her nails tickling my skin. she moves my face to look at her and winks at and my face fucking burns.
"you like doing this to me!?" i almost shout at her as i raise my hands to my face pulling some hair trying to cover my face.
and she laughs
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AN: i know the updates have sucked but october is really going to make me inspired. (i hope)
xxxxxxXXXxXXxXXXX mads
DU LIEST GERADE
Sweet Night Lies. - Chim
Romansacheryl and kimberley don't even know what is happening. are they falling for each other? maybe they just use eachother to get high off of when they are low. or maybe it's just a stupid love game. maybe it's nothing. it's whatever.
