Loving Kim Taehyung | (Loving Series #2)

Chapter 18

IRENE's POV

I glaced at the wall clock and noticed the time. Alas dos na pero hindi pa ako kumakain ng lunch. May pagkain ako dito sa hospital na hatid pa ni papa pero ni hawakan ay hindi ko iyon nagawa. I was too scared to stand uo from this chair, I was too scared of not seeing him opening his eyes; waking up from the accident.

Namamawis na ang kamay ko dahil sa ilang oras na paghawak sa kamay niya. Namumutla parin ang balat niya pero hindi na katulad nang lumabas siya sa operating room.

Thinking about my situation gives me anxiety. The thought of living alone and lonely makes me so, so sad. Him leaving me here in this world full of love makes my heart break into pieces.

I did not notice it not until the accident, but now it's clear to me that I love him. I love my husband. Despite all the confusion before, I knew that deep inside me was a love growing for him.

Tinitigan ko ang itsura niya, he looks like he's just sleeping. A tear escaped my eye when I glanced at the scar on his brow bone nearing his eyes. My other hand reached for his cheek, I caressed it as tears escapes my eyes.

"I'm sorry for not being a good wife to you. I'm sorry if I was hard headed. I'm sorry for not being good enough..."

My hands run through his hair while kissing his cold hands. Suddenly I remembered all the times when I was being hard on him, rejecting him, arguing with him, pissing him off, and everything else I've done wrong to him.

"Kapag nagising ka, I will give you hundreds of kisses just like what you wanted. I'll give you tight hugs as warm as you like. I'll hold your hand anywhere." I whispered.

"Please wake up, I miss you." I kissed his cheeks as I wiped my tears away.

The feeling I'm feeling right now is unexplainable. My heart feel so heavy, I feel a weight on my shoulder and I can't see properly because of my puffy eyes. I stood up and looked at the window. As I look at the streets, horrifying pictures of Taehyung crashed my mind. What if he never made it? What if he did not hold on? What if he was out of breath?

I sighed as I looked back on him. As soon as my eyes reached his form my eyes widened.

His eyes are opening, like he's trying so hard to open them. Mabilid na lumaput ako sakanya at hinawakan ang pisngi niya.

"Taehyung, don't force yourself! I'll call the Doctor." I quickly peeked my head out the door and shouted for the nurses to be alarmed.

I sat as I watched the nurses and the Doctor take care of him. The moment he opened his eyes, my eyes never left his. I watched him roamed his eyes through the room as it lands on me. I raised my hand and gave a wave but he just looked at me like I was nothing then averted his eyes from me.

A slight pang on my chest hit me. Hindi ko iyon pinansin at inisip na baka he was still unconscious.
When Doctor was done checking him, he told me to call Taehyung's parents, which I already done. I ask him if Tae is already okay, but he told me that he'll do further observation of him.

As we were left alone inside the ward, I slowly made my way towards his bed. I smiled at him, but he didn't smile back. I sat at the chair and stared at him for a while.

"Hi..." Malambing kong sambit.

"How are you feeling?" Tanong ko pero hindi niya ito sinasagot.

Ang titig niya ay nagpakaba sa akin. He's cold eyes piercing through me.

"Si mama?" Yan ang sinagot niya sa akin. Kumunot ng bahagya ang noo ko. What is wrong with him?

"They're on their way." I said. Tumango lang siya at pumikit.

What? Hindi niya ba ako kakausapin? Is he mad at me?

Hinawakan ko ang kamay niya na mainit na ngayon. I was about to cry when he quickly withdrew his hand from my hold. Shock is evident on my face.

"Anong problema mo?" I asked him. I can't believe this, paggising niya ay ganito ang trato niya sa akin? Samantalang nang tulog siya ay walang sawa akong umiiyak at ni kumain ay hindi ko nagawa dahil sa takot tapos ganito ang isusukli niya sa akin?

"The real question here is, who are you?"

Nanlaki ang mata ko. Nanlabo agad ang paningin ko at hindi nakapag salita agad. He doesn't remember me? For real?

When I was about to say something, the door flew opened. All of them went in one by one, magmula kina Tita, my parents and our friends.

Napatayo ako kaagad at hinayaan silang kausapin siya and as I watch them, a question lingered my head. Bakit sila naaalala niya? Bakit ako lang ang hindi?

"Oh bakit hindi kayo nag-uusap?" Puna sa amin ni mama. Hindi ako kumibo dahil sa takot.

"Bakit kami mag-uusap?" Tanong pabalik ni Taehyung na ikina-pikit ng mata ko.

"Aba syempre, mag-asawa kayo!" Ani tita.

"Nag-away ba kayo paggising mo?" Ani tito.

"Baka tito, nagkatampuhan yan!" Ani Jungkook.

"Baka kamo, nagalit si Irene kase di umuwi." Ani Hoseok. Tinignan nila akong lahat at naghihintay ng sagot. Nanuo ang luha sa mata ko.

"Tita... Hindi niya po ako maalala." I slowly said as my tears drop one by one. Napasinghap silang lahat at ang unang umalo sa akin ay si Samantha.

"What?! Taehyung, you don't remember her?!" Biglang sigaw ni tita sakanya.

"I don't." Simpleng sagot niya na dahilan nang pagbagsak ng katawan ko.

I am so exhausted with these at ngayon sasabay pa ito. I feel my body, almost giving up on this.

"Doc! What happened?! Bakit hindi niya maalala ang asawa niya?!" Tanong kaagad ni mama nang dumating ang Doctor na ipinatawag nila.

As he checked Taehyung's eyes. He sighed.

"With this situation, I can tell na may possibility na may temporary amnesia siya. It happens to patient na malakas  talaga ang impact ng ulo sa pagkapukpok. Madalas ay temporary amnesia ang nararanasan nila, and as for my observations from my past patients, nawawalang pansamantala ang memorya nila ng mga taong huli nilang inisip." Tumingin sa akin ang Doctor at tumingin pabalik kay Taehyung.

"What do you remember about her?"

"Nothing." Tumingin siya sakin nang banggitin iyon. Napayuko nalang ako. Crying won't help this situation right now and I'm fucking tired of it.

"What do we have to do to make his memories of me comeback?" I ask the Doctor.

"Pwedeng magpakita ka ng mga litrato niyong magkasama noon. Act like nothing happened, make him feel what you were like before. But, it might trigger some headaches so huwag mo siyang biglaan. Dahan-dahanin mo, isa-isa lang." Tanging tango lang ang nasagot ko sakanya.

Nag-aayos ako ng gamit ko sa ward ni Taehyung. Uuwi muna ako at magpapahinga. Si tita nalang din ang bahala sakanya ngayon. Hihintayin ko nalang siyang makabalik dito at aalis na rin ako.

Hindu ko na muli pang kinibo si Taehyung. I'm scared, alright? Ayokong magsalita, I can't even look at him in the eye! 

I was about to stand and peel some apples for him nang magsalita siya.

"How did we met?" Napaangat ang tingin ko sakanya.

"Why do you wanna know?"

"Curious lang ako." Umiwas siya ng tingin. "Nevermind."

Huminga ako ng malalim at kasunod non ay ang pagbukas ng pinto.

"Irene, sige na at umuwi kana ako na ang bahala dito." Sabi ni tita habang ibinababa ang mga gamit niyang dala.

"Sige po, ma." Sinuot ko na ang bag ko at nilapitan si Taehyung na matamang nakatingin sa akin.

"I'll see you tomorrow, Tae." I leaned down and kissed his forehead.