My Crown Of Shame

Tired

I'm so tired.
Emotionally
Mentally
And
Physically.

I'm tired with my emotions. I wish sometimes I didnt feel anything so that way I'd be better. I wouldn't be depressed, I wouldn't be hurt, I wouldn't "Fall in love" or get crushes or whatever. I wish they'd all just vanish. It be so much easier that way.

I'm tired of helping people. Trying to boost their self esteem is so hard when they just keep going back to stair 1. I understand, but I'm just wanna help them cause I know how it feels to be so low that our wings dip below the blue waters.

I'm trying to boost them to at least where they can glide freely in the wispy clouds. But they just sink. I tried. I'm still failing. I tried to help my Moon Mother and she just kept fighting back. Why cant she shes beautiful enough.

It bothers me when people whom are beautiful dont realize how fucking good they have it. It takes so much not to scream bloody murder at them and tell them how much they should be grateful for what they have. UHG.

I'm so tired I have bags under my eyes. Laylanna pointed it out to me during science and I was sorta surprised. I didnt know that I was so drained and tired.

I want to go into a forever sleep where I can just go to sleep with no worries. Death, is its name I had forgotten. It sounds so nice but I'll keep trying till my legs give out and I fall into a hell bound pool of blood of those I failed.