My Crown Of Shame

Marina?

Marina, I'm sorry. I dont know if your reading this or not. But in case u are, I'm sorry.

I know in Ceramics that I said i was fine. And being honest I wasn't, your right. But I just dont know how to put it into words. My minds all jumbled up and I dont know what's what.

I've been a little distant towards you, yes. But I have my reasons. You did nothing wrong. In my mind I realized that we only have 5 weeks till schools out. And next year I'm sure we won't have any classes together. And over summer, cause you have a girlfriend, you wont really talk to me. Which is fine, I'm used to it by now. I've got hali, and you got Abby.

I thought thatd we'd get an appartment together or something before everything happened but I thought that with kleo and look were I am with her. I'm sure itll happen to you just not on hate.

I'm trying to stop latching onto you because that's wrong. Your a person, not an object. I'm trying to let you go. Not completely but to where if you dont hangout then it doesn't hurt.

I hate letting my guards down and letting people in, but damn you broke through easily. And it's hard to block you out. I'm winning though. Its working.

And, i just...
I want you to be happy. So, please promise me to take care of Abby. I love you a lot and I want nothing but happiness for you.
Stay with her and love her till you cant anymore.

This isnt even all I have to say. Just the basics. Ill see you tomorrow 👋🏻