My Crown Of Shame

To my bun bun

Hali...

Thank you so much for being here. Thank you for being the sweet, kind, caring, beautiful, smart angel that you are.

I know I haven't necessarily been a great person. I know I've been neglecting you for the past few days. I know you dont deserve it, and I have no excuse for it either.

I dont want you to go, but if it makes you happier. Then do it. I'm not holding you back. If your unhappy, then please tell me. You've been keeping me in the dark to, something like you've been afraid to tell me what's bothering you.

I want to help, but I dont know how if you wont tell me. I understand if you feel like this is your own battle to fight. Like you have to fight it alone. But you dont have to.

Just know that I'm always here. I'm staying by your side. I love you bun.

Dont break yourself down. Build up your walls, im sorry for everything that happened to you when you were younger. But I'm happy your still here. I know that we've both gone through stuff together, and I'm happy were still standing.

You've been there when I hit the very bottom. You know this to. When nobody else knew, you brought me back up onto my feet.

I wish I could have been there all the same. I wish that I could give you a hug. I've told you this before and I'll tell you again. Your like my sister. Your like my other half. Your just like me so much its sorta scary.

The message you just sent me is making me cry. I'm not even lying. Your breaking my heart. And it hurts so fucking much.

Please don't ever feel like you should put yourself last. Put yourself first. I want to save you but were both drowning in a sea of our mixed emotions. The more I cry and try and breathe I feel myself sinking farther down.

I love you so hecking much that you saying that you cant be happy any longer is heartbreaking. Hali, please. Dont leave out of sorrow.

If you feel like your abusing my love and affection for you then your wrong. I feel as if I haven't given you enough to go on.

I love you so fucking much, and really hope you know that ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖