My Crown Of Shame

YOU

Marina. This is to you. I'm not sure if you'll read this reconsidering what I did but If you do, read till the end but dont reply. Just leave it.

Now, I know what I did was wrong. On probably multiple levels. But you wouldn't understand. I'm sorry if I offended you, hurt you or did whatever. I'm am.

But, I'll tell you this. The whole ass reason I got jealous was because I LIKED you. In.. I suppose the same way I did kleo. And it took over. And once you started to talk about a new girl, I knew that itd be the same scenario.  So, I prompted you to ask her out.

You seemed so happy when you were with her and when you talked about her. But what you dont realize was that when ever you did, it was like someone fucking stabbed a knife into my heart.

You never realized it though which is good.

I thought that because I had this book that I could vent to it without you finding out. But of course I COMPLETELY forgot you could read it.

Yes, I told you before that I had started to distance myself. You said that was the whole reason this is happening. And I agree. I distanced myself in hopes of killing the "Feelings" I had for you. But, it didnt work as usual.

I dont care what you think of me anymore. Whether it be a monster, a dick, a bitch, or truly anything. You were a great friend, I'll admit. Sorry for being the usual fuck up :)
But, honestly we wouldn't have been friends after this year. Face it.

Hope your doing fine, and hope Abby is to.

Sorry again for being me :)
This isnt all I wanted to say but I was planning on posting this earlier, but eh.

Later 😁