Textmate

Chapter 4: I have to move on

Chapter 4: I have to move on.

            I had been outside our homeroom for about 5 minutes and I seemed to cry so hard. I just hid behind the trees because I didn't want students passing by to see me that I had been crying and they might think that I was crying because of that freaking break-up. I wanted to show the world that I was strong, and I also want to show Albert that he was wrong for breaking up with me. So, after a while, I entered our homeroom just like nothing happened.

            As we are waiting for our next subject, my cellphone beeped. I just wished someone who texted me at this moment will be able to cheer my mood a little bit. I opened the message and it was from Tony.

Him: Hello? What's up?

Me: I'm fine.:(

Him: What happened? Something wrong?

Me: Nothing.... This is nothing.

Him: Come on. Spit it out.

Me: Really, I'm fine. Don't worry about me.

Him: Don't you trust me?

Me: Hahaha.. See. I am happy.

Him: I don't think so. I can feel it.

Me: Are you a psychic?

Him: Not really but I have a sixth sense. Come on, spit it out.

Me: It was just about this boy, my ex actually.

Him: What about him?

Me: It's just that.. never mind..

Him: You still love him, don't you?

Me: Maybe.

Him: Tell me about him.

Me: See, we've been together for one year and I thought everything was fine until one day, he said that it wasn't happy anymore. It's been a week though.

Him: Is he your first love?

Me: Yes and no.

Him: What do you mean?

Me: I had boyfriends before him but he's the one that I really loved and the one that lasted longer when it comes to my other relationship.

Him: Oh! That must be really hard.

Me: Yeah. And I want to move on and forget about him but as of this moment, I just can't forget him.

Him: Just take it slow. I've been in that situation before and I know that's very hard for you.

Me: What did you do?

Him: I'll talk to you later, I still have a class. Take care!

            For the first time since the night I started texting him, it was the first time that I really wanted him to say more about his whereabouts. I think I'm starting to trust him as a friend. And who knows? He might be the one who can help me get through this crap about Albert.

            The teacher arrived and he started talking about Geometry. Our topic was about how to get the perimeter of an object. Usually, when it was Math time or any subject, I would listen with my full attention but today, my mind seemed to wander somewhere. I was wondering what Albert was doing right now. I was wondering if he still loved me and I was hoping that one day, he would take back what he said, regret it and I would be willing to be with him again. Because of this stupid break-up, I was not able to sleep properly or even eat. I also noticed that my study habits were declining. Then the bell rang and everyone was rushing to the door to have their lunch.