Ride or die |bxb| UNEDITED|

18.

Ride or die
Created on 30th March 2019
By Alpha-black
And it's dedicated to every single one of you reading this book❤ and just for being yourselves and for being alive.

This chapter is very personal to me so yap..
Enjoy (not likely 😭)

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Everyone was whispering. It got louder with each step and it agitated him more. Kristopher curled his fingers in a tight fist as everyone stayed cleared of him as he moved through the halls leading to class.

He had a murderous look on him and it was for good reason. He felt the walls closing in on him, caging him, trapping him and he wanted out.

No one understood but they kept talking and Kristopher couldn't take it anymore.

Kristopher was about to pounce on the frightened figure when he felt a pair of soft hands on him. He looked into clear blue eyes that would have been Alec's own if not for the color. He visibly relaxed but his shoulders were still tensed.

“What the hell has gotten into you Kristopher! We have a non bullying policy and you know that!” the principal screeched, quickly putting the blame on him without asking. Was he to blame?

Kristopher still held the boy by the neck, though not tight enough to choke him but it sure did sent the message. He released him and watched as the boy scrambled away; he turned turned to the principal with an intense glare in his grey eyes that seems to make the principal shrink back into herself, Jesse have never seen Kristopher this scary before but she knew he couldn't be blamed.

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The hospital smell is all too familiar, the s
nostalgic smell and the walls were burning holes right through him. His body screamed at him to turn and run as fast as his legs can carry him but he willed his body to move. One step at a time. He have to do this. For him.

He stood at the door trying to keep himself together. Alec is behind that door, his boyfriend is behind that door so he gathered all the will in him and walked in. He gasp at the sight of him.

His once flawless face is now swollen with numerous cuts on his face and neck. His right hand is in a cast and the left has different tubes attached to it. Kristopher sat down close to him and held Alec's fragile, cold hands in his.

The only sound that could be heard is the beeping sound of the machine. Kristopher sat quietly just trying to gather his thoughts together. Just how long would he be like this?

“You know, my mom used to bring me to a place like this all the time and you know what's funny?” Kristopher gave a dry laugh, one which is all too fake.

“I was once in the same position as you. My right hand in a cast, my face swollen like I was beaten to a pulp, me in a coma. But I was actually beaten to a pulp, a beating that landed me straight to a coma.”

Kristopher chewed his lips, trying to hold off some memories that were trying to resurface but that wasn't happening so he continued.

“When I was little you know, my mom and dad separated and I was a kid so I didn't know shit. All I knew was to play but when my dad came to visit I was thrilled. My mom was very sick at that time so my dad offered to go get ice cream but then I found myself in other state and that was how it all began. I got into an accident on the first day of school, my dad would react to every little mistake I make. He did-does love me but his anger overshadowed his love. It was tough love but it wasn't right because he had his expectations on me, his life goals that he didn't get to fill was dumped on me, I was expected to be perfect and when I wasn't I got beaten. I was terrified of him.”

Kristopher inhales sharply, trying to calm his nerves. He was trying not to feel but it just felt so damn impossible.

“You must be wondering why I'm telling you this especially when you are in a coma. Well part of me is hoping you are listening right now and part of me is hoping you ain't. If you are then you'll be able to understand why I kept bugging you all this year's, you were hurting and I could see that and maybe that was what drew me to you. I just didn't know how deep it ran and if you ain't then you won't feel sorry for me cause really I don't need that. What I need is for everything to go back to normal.”

Kristopher looks over at the stiff body of his boyfriend wondering how things got this worst. Wondering what he did to have everything that has ever mattered ripped away from him. He felt the sting of tears but Kristopher isn't about to break down. He couldn't allow himself to feel.

“it was on a gloomy evening, I finally got out of coma and my body was still healing when I saw my mom and like before I was thrilled and she was too. Only that she wasn't really strong enough but she came, she came and that was all that mattered. She asked if I wanted to come with her and I said yes so she took me without telling him and I was happy to go but that night she nearly fell off the bridge and I would have followed her cause at the time she was my everything. My savior. For awhile it was just us, then I got to school and I knew you and I irritated you and I got to know the other you literally and realize I love all of you and my mom knew everything cause I told her everything but I won't be able too anymore and you know why?”

Kristopher could feel his anger rising though he knows it is displaced, it wasn't something that could be helped.

“Cause now, you took her away from me.”

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I had a goal to finish this book before this month ends but I failed. *wipes invincible tears.

This chapter wasn't supposed to be this said, Kris mother wasn't supposed to die cause I even wrote about her on the spinoff but she just had too folks. I need kit angry and sad. I need him to be a ticking bomb and I had an episode last night which might have contributed to the death of Maria (kits mom) haha oh well

Thank you for reading lovelies. I need to nurse my aching fingers 🏃