Dear him,
I'm sorry, I'm sorry for everything. I'm sorry I said I liked you, because to be honest I did. I'm saying 'did' because I don't anymore. I can't. I can't like you or be with you because you're too good for me. You're too nice, too happy. I don't deserve that. I decided to let you go go because I will hurt you. I know I will because I hurt everyone around me let alone myself. I'm not good for you. I shouldn't just let you go to her but you wouldn't. You chose me over her. Why? If only you knew that how shitty my life is. I'm not perfect, I'm not pretty. I don't have the perfect body, I'm not overly intelligent, I'm not funny, I'm awkward. Ok. I can't pretend that I didn't like you because I did. But I can't. I can't and I won't hurt you. If I hurt you, I don't know what I would do. I bring everyone down. I like the fact that when we hung out nothing was awkward. When we were left alone all was good. So I'm telling you now, find someone else, go back to her because I know she will treat you right. Go out with Dyani, she treated Lucas right so I know that you will be happy. I'm not jealous, I won't ever be. I just want you to be happy. Your happiness is more important to me than you think. I hope you understand.
Best wishes,
A
