I can't help but feel the slightest bit of jealousy when I see my friends having crushes or boyfriends/girlfriends.
It's not because I want to be with them — that's kinda weird.
It's because I know that however much I try to be in a relationship, I know I never will be.
I know that even if I have 1 or 2 relationships in my lifetime I will never get married and have the life I've planned out for so many years.
I'll be the lonely woman with 25 cats and you know what, that's okay.
If it's what I am supposed to do then it's fine.
Of course I want kids and someone to love me as much as I love them but I doubt that will happen.
It's just kind of sad that I will have to sit at my friends future weddings and pretend I'm okay because being alone will hurt.
Atleast now I know that I, forever supposed to be
Alone
