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"hello, who's this?"

"pala-english ka rin pala, dog. ganyan ba talaga tropa niya?"

"hello to you too ate orange. umeenglish lang, ganyan agad? tsaka, pa'no mo nakuha number ko? the last time i checked hindi ka po nagsesave ng numbers."

"minamaliit mo ba ang pagmamahal ng ate mo sa'yo ha, douglas kang?"

"drama mo talaga ate orange. di ka naman ganyan kadramatic noon, recently nagkakaganyan ka na. what's up?"

"ewan ko ba ba't di ko nalang dinelete o binlock in one go 'tong number mo. kausap nga lang kailangan ko,"

"kaya nga tinanong po kita ng 'what's up', ate."

"hayyy. douglas, pa'no ba lumugar ng tama sa buhay ng isang tao? pa'no ba mag neglect ng feelings?"

"alam kong patungkol to kay kuya blue, ate. ba't mo ba ako tinatanong eh bine-baby mo ako. wala akong malawak na kaalaman diyan."

"douglas naman."

"i'm quite sure you heard what i said on kuya blue's possible feeling towards you. maybe you just find the feeling of liking someone and having them possibly reciprocate it foreign. first time mo naman, after all. manang ka na po kasi, ate,"

ang galang mo talagang bata ka.

"as foreign as it may, alam kong it sparks the fear in you, tama? the fear na baka you're only the one in that page, na the feeling isn't mutually symbiotic. though if you're really determined to cross out your feelings in the equation then,"

dumaan muna ang isang nakakailang na katahimikan bago pinagpatuloy ni dog ang pangangaral niya.

"then figure out your role in his life. kung tingin mo kaibigan ka lang talaga, make it a factor to cancel those feelings. sanayin mo ang sarili mo sa lugar na 'yan. create your bounds. however, alam mo naman sigurong may kalayaan kang sirain yang mismong bounds na maaari mong gawin and step over those limits. the thing is, if you're still unmoved - you can be hurt; if you've already adjusted then, no worries."

bumuntong hininga muna siya bago nagpatuloy ulit. alam kong hinahayaan lang niya akong makinig.

"the contradicting part is, what you're feeling now - you being scared na mahulog and all - could also be what he's feeling right now which creates misbalances in your situation. it's like an invisible wall, an invisible unequal sign in the middle of an equation. if none of you takes the risk, - given na posibleng mutual kayo - you're both wasting the chance. but if it's fate already interfering, there's two options: to fight, or to accept it and flee."

"you made me smile, dog."

"huh? bakit?"

"hearing you sound so wise and mature despite the fact na mas nakababata ka at ako bilang ate mo ang kausap mo ngayon, makes me feel so lucky and secured. secured because in times when there's too much doubt, i know someone's there to lead the way out."

"i see. basta, ate, nasasa'yo lang kung anong pipiliin mo sa pinagsasabi ko kanina. seeing you happy in your decisions is enough for me, ate orange."

"thank you, douglas."

"ate?"

"mhhmm?"

"take the risk, or lose the chance. love you, ate orange."

"noted, bunso. love you too, douglas."

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