BLUE ORANGEADE.

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blue

"real talk, kuya blue - ano ba talagang nararamdaman mo para kay ate?" douglas' eyes were piercing, as if he's intently assessing both my words and acts.

even before meeting orange, i already knew who she was. once in a while i get to see her at douglas' place. i can recall that that one time when she tripped while playing with douglas on the lawn. that happened around eight years ago and still i find it funny how she laughed and cried at the same time. i was inside my room back then, too shy to get involved with new faces despite knowing douglas for long.

"what do you think, douglas?" the question was apparently dumb of me to ask.

douglas shot me a bored look - probably wanting to stab the stupidity out of me.

"sigurado ka bang nakakain ka nang tama? kuya blue, seryosong usapan pero lutang ka. minsan na nga lang magtanong nang ganito. hayy,"

"douglas,"

"ano na naman yan. 'pag di mo ayusin 'yang mga sagot mo, kahit dapat galangin ang matatand - este ang nakatatanda, i wouldn't mind slapping you in the face - truthfully,"

"this is serious, douglas,"

"oh bakit? no'ng nagseryoso ba ako kanina, sinagot mo ba ako nang maayos, ha? tapos ngayon, konting-konting kulit lang galit ka na?! gano'n ba?" his eyes were twice as large as they originally were. simply saying, they were mega wide. maiiyak na ata 'to.

"i didn't mean it that way. keep your cool, you're losing your composure."

"syempre arte lang 'yon. manhid ka talaga kuya. dinapuan ka na rin ng isa sa pinakacontagious na sakit sa senses. kaya di mo mabasa-basa 'yung mga galaw ni ate,"

what did he mean by that?

"you mean perhaps her friendly nature?" i inquired. hindi ko talaga alam anong ibig niyang sabihin.

"'yan na nga ba ang sinasabi ko. her acts were more than friendly, kuya. can't you really sense it? even from the start, she was in a pitfall. marupok si ate orange, and she knows it somehow. it hasn't been long since you've met but the interactions you had gave perfect opportunity for her feelings to grow. she probably failed to notice it sooner considering this is her first time experiencing it but she likes you, and she's trying to get rid of it because you're just friends," hearing she likes me straight from her brother's mouth made me quite the happiest lad at this moment, yet the happiness completely backlashed when he said the last phrase.

so all along, i was acting stupidly.

"i... i- i admit, i'm dumb,"

"took you long enough to figure it out by yourself. did you also happen to figure out you drunk called her last night, kuya blue?"

what?!

"i did what? s-so that's why her contact was strangely located at the top of my call history. dang it!"

ano kaya ang pinagsasasabi ko sa kanya last night? i hope it's less saddening than how the situation already is.

"more than that, you literally confessed to her. last night, while drunk."

they say don't keep your hopes up, and that's perfectly how it should be with me.

"- so, bluementritt choi, how do you really feel about orange marmalade kang?" douglas inquired in a manner befitting a talk show host.

"she's special. we differ in many ways but it's enough to complement each other. to say i feel butterflies in my tummy when i get to spend time with her either personally or virtually is too common and lacking. when i'm with her, it's like the sky at dusk and dawn, overwhelmingly breathtaking with the orange hues blanketing the blue skies,"

"whipped."

"what?"

"whipped. i said you're whipped, kuya blue. poetically describing how you feel about one person? that's an obvious sign you feel a lot more than 'magkaibigan lang kami'. gusto mo siya, and you don't want to lose her? prove it then, before she finds a way to get rid of her feelings for you and it's too late,"

"how? t-takot ako, douglas. you know how dad was at the brink of falling out of love for mom and it hasn't been ten years! who knows, who knows i might end up like him too. i might end up sinning to the commitment i will make-"

douglas cut me off.

"but they fixed it, didn't they? kuya blue, turuan mo ang sarili mong tumingin in a different light. past relationships does not define current relationships. the same way, you being you will ultimately root to your parents but it doesn't mean you will commit the same mistakes. history repeats itself but it doesn't necessarily reincarnate on another person. you're bluementritt kang and no one else."

his words shot daggers behind my back, in a good way. it's a pain yet it's also healing. i needed that wake up call.

"how do you know so much? you're young and far behind, experience-wise."

"but that doesn't mean i'm behind in terms of observations. tama ba, kuya blue?"

right.

"thanks a lot, douglas. i think i know what to do now."

"dapat lang. ate orange's happiness is on my top priorities. take the risk or lose the chance, alalahanin mo 'yang kuya."

just like what armi said.

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orange kang

orange, i'm sorry about last night but can we meet up? bukas, sa park. i'll bring sean along with me.

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i nervously petted sean who was now seated comfortably on my lap.

i hope she says yes.

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okay. dadalhin ko rin si siri.

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gods, i hope this goes well.

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i figured blue needed a longer story time sooo here it is, mahaba-habang chapter. i have to apologize for the lack of warning na spokening dollars ang 90% ng content sa chapter na 'to hehehe

anyway, i guess isang chapter na lang and blue orangeade will be done :< yeonjun's story will be up next and i hope susuportahan niyo rin 'yon ^^ have a great night, lovelies ♥