Rising Sun (A twilight fan fiction)

I need you this way

Jake's pov

Ness has been really quite since we had lunch at school. I know what Janavia said upset her. It's not the truth at all I got shot because Tay is a sick asshole. I just need Ness to believe that. I walked in the little house I know Ness is here Bells told me where she went. I walked up to the bedroom Ness was on the bed crying.

I sat down and pulled her onto my arms. "Babe she had no right to say that it's not the truth" I said rubbing her back. "Jake it is the truth you got hurt because he wanted me" Ness cried. "He wanted to kill you I got hurt but if I wasn't there he would have killed you don't you understand that. Then where would I be, do you think I could live without you" I asked. "I don't want you or anyone to die for me. If anything ever happens to me I would want you to move on. Find someone to love. They could never love you as much as I do but I want you to be happy" she said. "I would die for you Ness that's just how it is and do you think I could ever love anyone but you. I can't believe your even talking or thinking like this" I replied trying not to get upset. "It's how I feel" she said. "I don't want you thinking like this Ness please stop" I begged. "Fine but it's how I feel, I'm going to go take a shower" she said and walked out the room.

I sat on the bed I don't understand why she is thinking about any of this. I would die for her in a heartbeat and moving on yeah right like I could even live without her I would die from the heart break of losing her. She came out the bathroom wearing nothing but a towel her hair was wet. She is just so beautiful and so sexy. I watched her brush her hair, she is making me crazy walking around me like that. I can't make a move on her after what Tay tried to do to her. Making love is off the table I can't put her through that. It might take her back to what Tay did. She came and sat on me. I think she is trying to kill me I know it's wrong to even think about sex but she is sexy as hell I can't help it. She kissed me. "I'm sorry babe I just love you" she said looking at me. "I love you too always I could never love anyone else don't you understand that Renessmee" I asked. "I feel the same way Jacob but I want you happy" she replied. "Your the only one who could do that Ness" I said moving her hair to her back. She turned her body to me and wrapped her legs around my body. She looked me in my eyes. "Jake you are all I have ever wanted. Your all I need Jake no one else could ever make me feel the way you do" she said looking into my eyes. "That's how I feel about you Ness so when you talk about not being here or me being with someone else it hurts babe it's you always will be" I explained. "I can see your point" she said and put her arms around my neck and kissed me.

I moved my hands down her back it felt so right being with her like this but I know I have to stop it before I can't. I pulled my face from hers. She looked at me then kissed me again this time it was full of passion. I pulled away after a few more seconds. She pulled her head back looking at me. "Why do you keep pulling away from me" she asked looking confused. "I have to Ness I can't be with you like this because of what happened with you it just doesn't feel right" I answered. She got off of me looking confused. "Because of Tay right" she asked. "I just think we should wait I can't right now" I answered. She walked over to the closet. "I understand that you can't see me like that anymore I'm sorry" she said sounding hurt. I walked over to her and turned her around she had tears in her eyes. "Babe I want you so bad I just don't want to remind you of him. If I touch or try anything you might get freaked out, I don't want you hurting in anyway" I explained. "Your not him. When you look and touch me it's with love and because you care.You want to make me feel good. Its about our love" she explained. "I'm sorry babe I should have known that I just didn't want to push you into anything" I replied. "You still want me then" she whispered. "Babe in that towel looking at me the way you were yes I want you so bad" I answered honestly.

Ness dropped the towel on the floor looking at me. "Are sure you still want me" she asked with the smile that I love. "I have only been as sure about one other thing in my whole life "I answered pulling her into my arms. "What was the other thing" she asked smiling. "That I had to marry and spend my life with you" I said. Sounds like 2 things to me she answered kissing her neck. "I want you Renessmee" I said looking her in her eyes. "You have me Jacob always I'm yours forever" she replied. I picked her up walking towards the bed. She wrapped her legs around me pulling my shirt off.