jaehyun pov
for the 20th time today y/n is calling me again. it's 1am y/n. you don't have any respect for my time.
i want to be angry at her. she cheated on me but why does it hurt my heart that she's chasing after me? i'll answer,i promise this is the last time.
i answered the call and it was y/n crying hard.
"what do you want?" i said.
"i'm so sorry jaehyun." her crying so hard made her words difficult to understand but i still understood. "please come back to me it won't happen again."
"go to sleep y/n." i sighed.
"why are you being like this jaehyun!" she yelled. "this isn't you!" y/n wasn't used to me being cold to her. she can do whatever she wants to me and i would always chase after her and beg for her love and affection,until i saw her kissing her co-worker when i went to pick her up from an office party. since then,i've had enough.
a tear escaped my eye. i don't know why but hearing her like this really made my heart hurt. she hurt me so many times over and over but hearing her cry makes me want to run to her and hug her.
"y/n please just stop." my voice was shaking a little. "if you still have any respect for me just stop."
she went silent and i was too. "tell me you don't love me anymore and i'll stop."
how can she do this to me?ofcourse i still love her. i love her so goddamn much but the pain overpowered my love for her. for the sake of my sanity i have to stop this.
"i don't love you anymore." no,i love you so deeply and it's torturing me.
the line was silent but i hear her sobbing. "i'm s-sorry." she kept crying. please stop crying my love. please don't do this to me. hearing her cry is like having my heart ripped out of my chest but i can't go back to her. not anymore.
"go to sleep y/n." i said then pressed to end the call. i lied back down on my bed and kept crying. i cried so hard i think my eyeballs are gonna pop out of its sockets.
it's not enough that i love her,she has to have respect for me,but i never got that from her. i can't live like this. i deserve to be loved too. as much it kills me to let her go i have to,it's better for the both of us.
a few minutes later my phone was ringing again. i closed my eyes,turned the other way,and went back to sleep.
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inspired by the song back 2 u by nct 127
