all of this was new to you. you were in a real relationship with someone and you wish you had a manual on how to be the perfect girlfriend for jaehyun. unlike you, jaehyun seems like he WAS given a manual on how to be the best boyfriend for you.
it was great. he was great. and it's so...new.
"jaehyun." you say softly as you lay next to him while he was reading a book.
"hmm?" he immediately puts the book down and cuddles you.
"are you happy?" you ask him shyly.
"i'm at my happiest." he kisses your forehead.
"you do so much for me, but i don't think i've done the same for you." you say.
"you're amazing already, you don't have to do anything more." he comforts you.
you wonder if this was because he's been in tons of relationships before that's why he's so good at being in a relationship. he knows when to shut up, when to give you advice, when to give you space, even the times you can't sleep and plays with your hair cause that could practically put you in a coma.
jaehyun entered your life and filled every little crack, every little part that was hollow. you were so full of him and it hurts you that you're not doing the same for him.
it was a few more months in the relationship that he asked you to move in with him. he says it'll cut both their budget and living expenses in half.
"jaehyun, don't you think it's too soon?"
"no i mean you sleep here all the time it probably won't even be a big adjustment." he says.
"okay." you say and he hugs you so tight you could barely breathe.
you decide to surprise him by picking him up at his university. up until this point, you never had any problems with jaehyun. he was perfect. too perfect that you forgot there are other women who'd kill to be in your place.
you seem walking towards the school gate with a girl. you don't know why but the way they were laughing together had you seeing red. you wonder to yourself why you're so mad. is it because she's prettier than you?
"y/n!" jaehyun finally saw you. he jogs to you and kisses you infront of everyone. you could see the look on her face that she was a little disappointed.
"oh yeah sorry, uhm y/n this is chae kyung my lab partner in chem." he introduced you two.
"hello" you held out your hand for her with a smile while jaehyun's hand was on your waist.
"oh hello it's nice meeting you, jaehyun can't stop talking about you by the way." she says while shaking my hand.
"please excuse him, you two should really talk about chemistry, not me." you let out a laugh and jaehyun says you two will be going along your way.
as you two were walking hand in hand you feel guilty for having judged the girl without knowing her first. she was so nice.
"you're awfully quiet." jaehyun says.
"oh sorry." you say.
"what's wrong?" jaehyun stops and steps in front of you visibly worried.
"i feel sorta jealous." you admit. jaehyun laughs at your confession.
"this is why i love you, you never make me guess." he hugs your waist. "chae kyung?" he asks and you nod.
"she's just my lab partner, i'd never actually do anything to hurt you y/n. how could i be interested in anyone else when you literally have the tightest pu-"
you hit his arm. "okay i get it!" you yell and he laughs.
everything was going well, too well actually and you both just fell into a routine. after some time you two just seemed like roommates who would occasionally sleep together and say i love you. you wonder if he's getting bored.
you're still completely in love with this boy. now you're wondering you've been doing something wrong. you worry so much that you unconsciously become distant from him. you feel that maybe you're around too much and he will get tired of your presence.
"hello y/n...again." you have constantly been hanging out at naeun & johnny's apartment so jaehyun could freely do whatever he wants.
"y/n, jaehyun may be wondering where you are or why you're always away." naeun says.
"i just think he needs space from me." you say.
"actually we need space from you- ow!" naeun kicked johnny's leg.
"hey! i buy you guys food and beer all the time in exchange." you defend. "well yeah that's true." johnny admits.
"i might be missing something but why would he need space again? did you guys fight?" naeun asks.
"no."
"so what then?" she asks again.
"we've sorta fallen into this...routine. i just feel like he probably gets tired of me." you say.
johnny and naeun smile at each other.
"y/n that's completely normal." johnny says. "i mean naeun here just walks around and farts all the time and i just got used to it. it's not going to be in the honeymoon phase all the time. you won't cuddle every time you sleep, no morning kisses every single morning, no dancing around your apartment. sometimes it's just silence and that's okay. when you love the person, you just love them even when they're just lying around practically dead."
"that's a weird way to end your speech but i get it." you laugh. "i better go home then." and the two of them nod.
you come home to jaehyun sleeping on the couch. you sit down next to him and admire his features.
"i'm sorry." you say softly and jaehyun wakes up.
"oh you're home,hi." he sleepily pulls you in for a hug. "have you eaten?" he asks and you nod. you feels your eyes stinging for some reason. maybe it's the guilt you're feeling for avoiding him or maybe it's the overwhelming love he's been giving.
"oh sorry did i hug you too tight? hey i'm sorry please don't cry!" jaehyun panics cause this is the first time he's actually seeing you tear up. he flops around the apartment looking for something while you're just tearing up on the living room floor. "uhm here!" he hands you a random plushie. "what the hell jaehyun?" you laugh.
"i'm sorry i don't know what to do this time i've never seen you cry before." he admits.
"and i've never seen you so frantic before." you laugh then gesture for him to sit on the couch before sitting on his lap. he's wearing a worried expression on his face.
"i'm sorry i've been gone so often lately i'm just afraid you might get tired of me." you say.
"i probably will at some point" he laughs. "but i'll still love you the same. i don't want to spend all this time with anyone else to be honest."
"me too." you smile at him.
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that's the end! just a simple story of how a relationship progresses 😋
