"what?" i was shocked by what she said. she's never done this. in fact she's always the first one to apologize even when i'm the one who did something wrong.
"i'll move out in a week." she said still sobbing. i removed my hands from her and faced the other way. not bothering to reply to what she just said.
the next morning,she wasn't beside me anymore. i went down and there was food already. i guess she left already because the food is just for one person.
i should be happy. she pulled the trigger first,i have freedom now. i've always waited for her to do this but now that it happened it's like i'm afraid all of a sudden,like i lost my safe haven.
1 week she said. all this isn't fair to her. everything in this house is equally paid for by us. she's going to find a new home without me in it. she's going to start a new life without me. the thought of it makes my stomach turn.
just yesterday i was so fixated on all the things that are going wrong in our relationship but now that she has actually broken up with me...i feel...i don't know. now that it happened i'm starting to realize how completely different my life will be from now on and i'm starting to worry about her. where will she go?shouldn't she be the one to stay?who's going to fix anything that gets broken in her new home?who will kill the cockroaches and spiders she's so terrified of?who will lift heavy things for her?but more importantly,will someone new kiss her?hug her?fuck.
just thinking about it is stressing me out already. why couldn't i have realized this earlier? now it's too late,she hates me. i haven't even asked her to marry me yet...
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when i got home after work she was already there fixing her things.
"y/n what are you doing?" i asked.
"oh i'm just sorting my stuff so it won't be hard to move out when i find a new place." she said as if it was just nothing.
"you found a place?" i asked.
"no. i'm gonna stay at my mom's place until i find one." she said.
y/n pov
"no. i'm gonna stay at my mom's place until i find one." i said.
"y/n.." he called for me i'm pretty sure i heard his voice break. i ignored him and continued fixing my stuff.
"stop doing that." he said.
"doing what?" i asked.
"that."
"i don't understand taeyong."
"stop trying to leave me." he started tearing up now. i haven't seen him cry since his father died 2 years ago.
"isn't this what you wanted?" i asked him. i know full well that he's...tired of me. i don't feel wanted in this house anymore.
"what did i do wrong?" he asked. the way he's breaking down infront of me hurt me more than i expected.
"taeyong do you still love me?"
"ofcourse i do."
"then why don't i feel it anymore."
"y/n i'm sharing a home with you what makes you think that i don't love you?"
"i saw you having dinner with a girl." i said and he looked shocked.
"taeyong you could've just told me that you're gonna have dinner with someone. who was she that you had to lie to me?"
"no one." he said.
"i don't believe you taeyong i know you like the back of my hand. you can't like to me." i said then he looked down.
