"my goal is to become rich." jaehyun answered you question about his goals. "wow. groundbreaking." you say sarcastically before eating a piece of sushi.
he took you to a small japanese restaurant near your university. "i'm so glad you picked this place i love it here." you say.
"you've been here?" jaehyun queries. "oh yeah all the time, they actually know me." you say then wave to the staff behind the counter.
"aaahhhh jinjja, i was really trying to impress you." jaehyun says. "well hey! i am though! like i said i love it here." you comfort him and he smiles.
you don't notice when he stares at you a little more lovingly whenever your eating, or the fact that his ears turned red when you picked up that eyelash that fell on his cheek and asked him to make a wish. he wished for the chance to get to know you better.
jung jaehyun was the exact opposite of you. he cares about everything albeit not trying to seem like it. underneath his cool and calm facade is a deeply emotional man. you didn't give any meaning to the kisses you give him, but he couldn't stop thinking about it ever since the first time.
when you both decide to head to your dorm this time he doesn't seem to be interested in sex so much, but he kisses you with more longing than the last one, more gentle. every adjective he could think of, it was more
you didn't care though. it's just kissing, it's just fun. when he cuddles you on your bed afterwards you didn't think anything of it, he'll be gone by morning anyway.
the next morning, he wasn't beside you like you expected but what you didn't expect was the doorbell ringing at 7am and it was jaehyun with breakfast.
"i didn't know if you like black coffee or a latte so i got both." he says as he enters.
"i thought you left, jaehyun." you say with a yawn. he kisses the tip of your nose and you laugh a little.
"you're such a good friend." you say as you grabbed the black coffee. he pauses as he was taking the food out of the bag. friend?
he continues taking out the food, pretending like he wasn't affected by what you just said because number 1, he doesn't want to scare you off. number 2, he also thought that maybe he was just rushing into his feelings. and number 3, he just wants to be around you and that was enough for him.
"oh i love fluffy pancakes." you say before stuffing your face and he smiles at you. this is enough, you are enough
weeks go by and you two spend all of your time together. whenever you hear something from the news, or see something interesting, you tell him and he indulges you about anything and everything you tell him. you do the same for him, trying your best to understand his enthusiasm when he talks about his vinyls.
along the way you two found that your universities are near each other, so you two decide to go to school together when your schedules permit. what you didn't know was that jaehyun would say that he also has a 7am class on wednesdays despite his first class of the day actually being at 10am. so he drops you at uni and pretends to go to his, but actually stays at a nearby cafe until his class starts.
"hey you've been spending time with jaehyun a lot huh, you don't ask me random questions anymore." naeun nudges you.
"oh yeah, we've been having so much fun." you smile at her.
"so are you guys dating exclusively or?"
"hmmm...exclusive...well i don't know about that.." you admit.
"but you guys are fucking doesn't that automatically make you two exclusive?" naeun says.
"well i mean, we haven't really talked about it..." you say.
"well do you want to be exclusive?"
"how would i know if i want that?" you ask naeun.
"hmmm...well okay, picture him fucking a girl way hotter than you. would you be comfortable with that?" naeun asks.
"exactly how hot?"
"shut up you know what i mean." naeun says, annoyed.
"i- it's ok i guess." you say but you're unsure. the truth is the thought of it makes your stomach turn, it's an unfamiliar feeling for you.
"how heartless, that's so typical of you." naeun says.
you were lying in bed that night, you told jaehyun you just wanted to sleep early and he didn't protest. you couldn't sleep, you kept thinking about that conversation you had with naeun. it felt like you were standing on thin ice. the best course of action would be to talk about this with him,but because youre a humongous idiot, you decide that it would be better to just not progress with whatever this thing you have with jaehyun. why would he want to be with you anyway, you thought.
you start avoiding him, telling him you're already at the university, making up any excuse not to see him.
"jesus christ y/n, how many relatives do you have and why are all their birthdays so close to each other." jaehyun says. he waited at the doorstep of your dorm late that night.
"jaehyun they don't allow visitors here on weekdays." you tell him. "well the coordinator didn't seem to care." he defends.
"okay okay" you open the door for him.
"why have you been avoiding me? did i do something wrong?" jaehyun asks, standing over you at the couch you were sitting on.
"can you please sit? it's hurting my neck looking up at you."
he sits beside you then looks at you with eyes full of worry.
"i was just thinking about what we are yknow, i just don't know okay like i didn't want to being it up cause you might think i'm ridiculous or something-"
he pulls you to him until you're sitting on his lap. he kisses you so gently and you feel yourself melting on to him.
"i think we're dating. i haven't been with anybody else since then, and i don't feel the need to explore honestly." jaehyun says.
"o-okay." you were nervous, this was so unfamiliar to you.
and so you two officially start dating, your former routine with him went back to normal but this time, you sleep over at his place more often. he bought extra towels and an extra toothbrush for when you're there. sometimes you leave your powder or your lipstick there, and it feels so natural that it scares you sometimes.
a few more months went by and everything seems to be going well except neither one of you said i love you yet.
sometimes you catch yourself before you end up saying it. you weren't sure if this was love or if this was an incredibly deep infatuation. he makes you so happy and secure, you can't imagine being with anyone else at this point but you wouldn't admit that to yourself.
jaehyun says it first and it catches you completely off guard. he said it as you two were brushing your teeth. he spit out the toothpaste and stared at you, free of make up and in his shirt that looked like a dress on you. in was in that moment that he felt so full, so warm, and so content with everything.
"i love you." he says. you stare at him through the mirror while he was staring directly at you. he looks at you like you're everything and it feels too much.
you spit out the toothpaste then kiss him, he was content with this even if you didn't reply.
maybe it was the was he was snoring softly with his mouth parted a little or his hair sticking out all over the place, it makes you want to wake up to this view every morning. his eyes slowly open but it seems like he's not fully awake yet. he pulls you in closer to him.
"good morning." he says with his sleepy voice.
"i love you, jaehyun." you say.
that woke him up. he pulls away a little so he could see if you're really being serious and you give him a small smile.
"good morning, i love you." jaehyun says then he kisses your forehead.
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part 3~~~~~
