*The Beauty of it all*

Drowning in your love

Jongin was right where he want to be. Sehun and him were laying face to face, his leg over his. Their hands intertwined. They both been there for hours lost in time, lost in each other deep stares. Jongin was at peace with this and he didn't really care that he was lost in love and didn't really know why. Maybe it was the way sehun smiled at him. Maybe it was the silly little things he pulled. Maybe it was just because he filled up his home and it left him feeling complete and whole again. It felt nice after all.

"I caused my father a lot of pain.." sehun started, startling Jongin from his thoughts.

"what?"

Sehun face was nonchalant and somber.

"He wasn't always like that."

Jongin remained silent letting sehun think a little longer before responding.

"I caused a lot of trouble with my parents. I had bullies at school due to my speech problem...plus I was a little shit"

Jongin frowned at this because he never really recognized a problem with his speech nor his behavior but he often did notice how he rarely spoke or expressed himslef much when they were together.

"when I never got what I wanted I would yell and scream mean things to her. This caused friction between my parents because my dad would always take my side over my mom. Eventually they got divorced. I realized I was the cause of it and tried to bring them back together but failed when they got into a huge fight. Mom told my dad she never really wanted a child and my dad slapped her across the face. I was shocked. I was also devastated at hearing my mom words and this caused me to run away from home. When I did make it back it was a week after my birthday. My dad was a wreck. He yelled profanities at me and said I killed the love of his life."

Sehun paused as if he was trying to hold back his tears. Jongin was squeezing his hand at this point.

"Turns out my mom committed suicide the day of my birthday..."

The shock of his words hit Jongin so hard he was not able to think clearly. His heart was beating harshly against his chest. His vision began  to blurr but he fought against it. He had to be strong for the boy before him.

"I can't believe she committed suicide...did she really not want to be apart of this world anymore?"

Jongin watched as sehun face showed a painful expression but there was no sign of tears or sadness.

Just a mixture of anger, hurt and confusion.

"It's not your fault, Sehun," Jongin attempted to comfort him but the boy just smiled like he always did.

"My dad hates me now because of it so he takes his anger out on me a lot."

Jongin lets go of his hand.

"That's bullshit and you know it. No one should ever put their hands on a person no matter how sad and upset they are!"

Sehun just stares at him in complete calmness.

"You don't get it, but I never expected you too. But maybe you will soon enough." Sehun said sitting up now.

Jongin stared up at him in disbelief.

what exactly did he mean by that?

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Jongin spent his days with sehun more than usual and totally forgot about kyungsoo in the process which he felt so bad for but he wasn't ready to talk to kyungsoo and he was sure kyungsoo was feeling the same way.

Jongin was waiting out in the lobby for sehun and Tao (who had became good friends over the course of time) after the movie they had went to go said had ended. Jongin can see Sehun and Tao leaving the bathroom,  engaging in some kind of conversation. Jongin just smiled at the two.

"Are you guys ready to go now?"

The two nodded their heads as they lead the way out of the movie theater and out to the car.

As they made their way in that direction Jongin drops Tao off first before heading home. Sehun waves him goodbye and Jongin reminds him to call him next time he was free.

when they finally made it home (and yes Sehun was now gradually moving in with him) Jongin was dead beat tired.

After several minutes of silence and exchanging subtle glances at each other, Sehun finally broke the deafening quietness.

" You want to try something with me?"

Jongin was laying on his back hand folded behind his head, but turned to focus his gaze on the boy who started taking off his clothes in front of him.

Jongin had to admit. It sure was a sight to see everytime he did that. He had a nice figure and Jongin just lays there staring.

Sehun only has on his briefs now and he gets in the bed with Jongin.

Damn he is fine.

"And what might that be?" he said smirking a little. Trying not to let his mind turn into filthy thoughts of him pinning him against the wall.

"You ever had....you know...sex before?" he asked shyly.

Jongin thought about it for awhile but he didn't know why he was thinking in the first place. The only thing he ever came close to doing as far as sex was concern was masturbation and he didn't even know if that counts for anything.

"No, not really."

Sehun doubled back.

"So you're a virgin??"

why was Jongin under the impression he was actually surprise to hear that?

"yeah, why?"

"Wow..."

Jongin sat up now staring back at him in confusion.

"wow what?"

Sehun giggled and slid a hand under Jongins shirt.

"That's so sexy..."

Jongin burst out in laughter because sehun sounded like a pervert.

"Are you a Virgin?"

Sehun started playing with Jongins' nipples, ignoring the question all together.

Jongin notice the bulge forming in his boxers. As tempting as he seemed Jongin shyly backed away by sliding back on the bed out of his reach.

Sehun just smiled his usual smile and moved closer. Jongin moved back once more, his back now against the wall. His mind was swirling aimlessly around. His breathing had become completely heavy as sehun only got on top of him bringing his face closer to his.

"You want me don't you?" he breathed out heavily against his ear.

The hotness from his breath tickled and excited him enough his member became hard. He was becoming self conscious that he looked away from Sehuns' lustrous stare.

"w-what.." his voice was not even above a whisper.

"I want to be your first..."

Sehun glided his hand down Jongins' pants'. He found his member and stroked it causing him to whimper in delight.

His eyes were closed and sehun pressed his body closer, cupping his face in his hand.

Their lips brushed against the other, hearts racing due to the anticipation that was both building up in side of them as Jongin groans in delight.

"I want you..." Jongin murmurs.

When their were no other words said between the two, but body heat, and sweaty beads forming against their skin, Sehun pulled away causing Jongin to open his eyes again. Suhun was staring back at him teasingly.

"I'm all yours."

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A/N~ Holy Shit.

I am still new to smut and stuff so ahsgsgahzvasgjkk!! forgive me ahead of time ;-; I'm losing my mind as I write this so yeah.

I am trying to move away from all the angsty stuff right now so you have no choice but to enjoy this smuttyness from me :D