Be safe.

XI.

Emily pov
It's really dark in here, why can't I open my eyes? Why can't I speak? All I hear is someone, I think a man, yelling I need to go to the OR as soon as possible and beeping sounds. Then nothing again. The next thing I hear are beeping sounds again and a door opens. Someone comes in but I still can't open my eyes. They start to speak and oh my god, I could recognize this voice between millions. It's my wife, she's here and crying. Why is she crying? I want to tell her everything is okay, that I'm alive but I can't, my lips wont move, my body wont move. She's holding my hand but I don't have enough force to move it. Then suddenly, I miss her touch, I can't feel her anymore, she is not near me anymore. I'm trying my best to open my eyes but I can't. I'm lost and confused. Next thing I know, Alison is back. She tells me I scared her to death and then she kisses me telling me she's taking her shirt off, I feel excited but again, my body won't fucking move! She tells me that I promised her to never leave her and I agree I will never leave her, she just can't see I'm alive. Then she goes on about all the girls' first times and this makes me sad, I so want to open my eyes and tell her I'm here, she can't hear me cry nor scream. She tells me she loves me and if only she knew how much I love her and the girls. I then hear her say our unborn child needs me as well. Wait she's pregnant? I need to move or do something so she'll stop crying but I can't! I hate this situation so much! It's still pitch black in here but suddenly something appears, it's memories of Ali and me, our wedding, the birth of our girls, our first kiss in the school library, our first "date" at the kissing rock, our first time and so many more. What is my brain doing? I gather all my force to wake up but nothing, I still can't move. All I hear now is Alison crying and someone telling her everything is going to be okay, I recognize this voice too, it's my mom. She then holds my hand and tells me the same things Ali did, that she loves me, she, Ali and the girls need me and so on. A nurse comes in and tells them visiting hours are over, I feel Ali's sweet cherry lips on mine, gosh I want to kiss her back so badly but nothing. I guess the night went by, I don't really know what time it is, all I know is that someone checked on me pretty frequently. I know it's morning when I feel lips on mine again. Alison came back. She tells me the girls are coming, yay I'm so excited to see them. She tells me how they found out I was in a coma. Wait so that's why I can't move nor talk, I am in a freaking coma?! How did this happened? Did I have an accident?. Oh gosh, am I dead on this hospital bed? Is this why Alison is crying since she first came to see me? I can't be dead because I hear and feel everything. Anyway, she wants me to be awake before the girls come and as much as I try, I can't open my eyes. I don't know why but I just can't. Alison left the room after talking to someone and my mom is near me now. I can't die, she already lost my dad, she can't lose me too. Then I hear two little girls' voice saying grandma. These are my two girls. I can hear their laugh but it suddenly stopped I guess they just saw me. No one is touching me for a moment before I can feel a little weight next to me on the bed. It's grace telling me she's here with lily. She tells me they miss me and then she tells me something that completely shattered my heart. She told me she'd rather see me painless and dead than alive and suffering. She's so wise, but I can hear Ali sobbing and running out of the room. It's silent again and Alison tells them visiting hours are almost over. What already? It feels like they just arrived. I can't let them go without seeing them. Lily asked Ali if they can touch me and I guess Ali said yes because before I know it I feel four little hand on both of my cheeks and sweet kisses, that's it I can't anymore, I really gather all the force in me, I need to see them , I miss them. I try with all I have to open my eyes and I start to see something really blurry. Wow it's hurting as hell so I close them again but I heard Alison yelling my name many times an she also puts her hand on my cheek. So now I have all of my girls' hand on me and I guess they gave me their energy and all their love or something like that and my eyes slowly open again. I open and close them slowly many times to adjust to the light. Now I finally see them. I can see them smile and I weakly smile back. I hear my mom calling for a doctor but for now, I just want to be with my family. I try to look at Ali, she's still blurry but so damn beautiful even with her messy hair and no makeup on, she is the prettiest when she's natural . I try to move my hand from the bed to her cheek but I'm still very weak. She takes it and I squeeze her hand slightly. She's crying and kisses my forehead. The girls are both hugging me, wow I missed them so much. The doctor comes in the room and do some exams on me. I still haven't talked yet and I hear him telling Ali they're scared I've lost some of my brain function like talking and walking. She looks scared and upset , I need to talk, for her. I open my mouth but nothing comes out, now I'm scared too. Tears are now rolling down my face. Alison comes back close to me and wipes them with her thumb before seating next to me on the hospital bed.

A: shhh shhh it's okay love, the important thing is that you're now awake

She gives me a kiss and for the first time in what felt like forever, I kiss her back. It may be a very weak kiss but God it feels so good to be kissing her. Visiting hours finished an hour ago and the nurses where kind enough to let my family stay for this extra hour but now, my tired girls went back to the hotel with their grandmas. The nurses moved me to another room, a bigger room. Alison is allowed to stay with me and that makes me happy but I hate the fact that she's taking care of me, I'm supposed to be the one taking care of her. She kisses me goodnight and goes away, she lies down on the little bed the nurses gave her to spend the night since I'm in a hospital bed and I can see she's not sleeping. I understand, I mean the bed she is on doesn't look comfortable at all. She is looking at me with her ocean blue eyes that I've missed like crazy. I tell her with my head to come in my bed with me. It doesn't take her long before sneaking under the blanket with me in the little hospital bed. I wrap my weak arms around her and she has her head on my chest. I can smell her sweet scent that I've missed more than anything. I kiss her head and we drift off to sleep.

Hey guys, sorry it's a much shorter chapter. I really hope you still enjoy reading my story :) Thank you! 

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