Glassy ⇝ Frerard | Incomplete, vvv slow updates

Update! 090820

((This was an update from sometime in 2019, updated for this date!)

Hello everyone! Long time no talk! Quickly just wanted to say thank you and give maybe a small update?

Glassy has 100k views! Thank you so much, this means more than anything to me. All of my life I wanted to write something people enjoyed the way I enjoyed- enjoy- fics and here we are. Thank you thank you. 🖤 Also wow, 30 chapters of me writing how irritating and fucking lame my version of Gerard is. I'm just :) thank you so much... I put a lot of my own thoughts and feelings -and self deprecation- into Gerard and his character is my whole soul. I'm unbelievably grateful.

As you've probably noticed, sometimes lurk in the comments and... don't post chapters lol? (Posting comments are so much fun hahaha!!!) It is strange tho. I remember being 14ish, writing the first chapter of this in my old room, excited to post! It was my first attempt at humour and it made me laugh so I thought I'd give it a go! This fic was my whole heart for so long, from 14ish-17ish! Even now, it's my favourite thing I've ever written and tho some would be embarrassed- I show it off!

I turned 21 a month ago and I'll be honest, I still read fanfiction!! Not my chem ones anymore (bts, yuri on ice, phan, etc), but I still love this! Never feel bad about reading fanfiction, writing it or enjoying it! It has brought so much happiness to my life. Still does.

Now, honesty time. As much as I love this fic and everything about it, I've been disconnected from it for so long. These aren't my characters really anymore. I don't know what they'll say, or think, or do! They're yours characters more than anything! I still get tons of notifications of people loving this fic, rereading, commenting- thank you! I am overwhelmed and surprised by the amount of notifications from this story I still get.

I have the fic planned out but... I don't know how to write it.

As well, I've fallen out with writing. I still get ideas and inspiration from time to time, but when I think about writing or try to, nothing comes out. It's been like writers block for years. That's why the updates around the end got so sporadic. I literally have the ending written out! I know what I want to do... but it was so hard and now... it feels so inauthentic.

I don't know if updates will come, I don't want to get hopes up like I have before. I am sorry for that. And I recognize lots of people who enjoyed this fic before have probably grown up from it... and that's ok! But for the people who still read, reread or are going to read in the future- I am gonna try to familiarize myself with the fic and fall in love with the characters again. I want to finish this.

I don't know how long it will take, I don't want it to be shit. I don't wanna leave people hanging (incomplete fics SUCK!!!) and I'd hate to have something I hold so much love for unfinished.

Thank you to everyone who has commented, loved this, loved my chem the way I did, supported me, etc! There's so much I am thankful for. This fic is tied to so many good things in my life- hiding away to write this, writing on planes, vacations, school, wishing I was like Gerard, wishing I had someone like Frank, venting, expressing my emotions. So much. It's dumb.

Thank you so much. Again. Truly.

A