The Nerd Has Benefits (BoyxBoy)

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Chapter 47

Pacing the room back and forth as my eyes were glued on my phone screen. Constantly tapping Xander's contact name as every attempted call I made were not pulling through.

"Xander, where the hell are you?" I muttered under my breath as I angrily stared at the screen.

It's been almost a week since our last encounter. He never texted me back or anything after that sudden confession and so did I. Tonight's the first time that I tried contacting him again. It's just unfamiliar of him to ignore me like that.

I slowly walked my way towards the edge of my bed and sat down. I closed my eyes and inhaled slowly as the quiet atmosphere of the room slowly invaded my thoughts. It felt like it was just yesterday when he confessed to me, how he liked me and had feelings for me. Xander, the same guy who witnessed me kissing girls in front of him and sharing how the sex was. I wonder how he felt when I was telling him all of those stuff.

Fuck, I never intended to hurt him.

I just don't understand all of this. Then there's Matt who I was attracted to. So, that makes me gay or what is it called? Bi-lingual?

No.... I think its called bi-sexual.

The ones who are attracted to both female and male. But the thing is, I was never been attracted to guys before until Matt came into the picture. Maybe he's just too feminine looking that it made it seem like a reason for me to be attracted to him.

Whatever it is, I'm just attracted to him. Maybe I am bi-sexual.

It has also been a week since I told Matt that I liked him. I never made contact with him after that and neither did he. I was never the one to chase someone but this time it's different. I spend the entire week trying to talk to him or send a message but I just can't do it.

In this moment, I had to choose between Xander and Matt.

I closed my eyes and gently flopped on top of my bed while I kept my eyes glued on the phone screen.

Why is it so sudden that I have to choose between the both of them? Can't I just be with them at the same time?

What the hell am I saying?

Xander is my best friend for fuck sakes. If anything, I should try talking to him even if he tries to ignore me. Maybe a private conversation with him can fix this.

Without any hesitations, I grabbed my car keys and put it inside my pocket. I hurriedly opened my bedroom door and made my way towards outside.

I glanced at my phone to check the time.

It's almost eleven o'clock in the evening.

Right, he is probably at his aunt's house.

I got inside my car and hurriedly put my keys into the ignition and turned my keys to get it started. The car swiftly turned on.

I stepped to the gas pedal and slowly drove towards Xander's house.

I just hope that this will be over once and for all. I don't want to lose him over some unrequited feelings.

....

Arriving at his aunt's house wasn't odd to me. His aunt was always busy from time to time that she is barely even home thats why she wanted Xander to live here so there's someone who can check up the house.

As I drove closer towards the exterior of the house, I noticed all the lights were turned off. Their were no lights covering the front poarch. The driveway was also empty which probably means that Xander isn't home.