candles and cotton | b.h

nine.

he nodded enthusiastically and opened the door, a pretty girl with long brunette hair and blue eyes stood there in a flowery knee-lenght dress.

"hi joe!"she gave him a kiss on the cheek, he went even redder, "h-hi rosie.."

he gestured her to come inside, she stared in awe at the apartment, then her gaze fell on me, who was advancing toward her.

i gave her a surprised hug, "hi rosie! i'm y/n! joe's older, more attractive roommate!"

i let go and she smiled, "hi y/n, it's nice to meet you!"

"oh wait until i tell you stories!"

"y/n! i moved in here a month ago!"

"oh hush joe."

rosie smiled, she had a pretty smile, she looked perfect for joe. rosie's eyes wandered to the kitchen where ben was, making himself a drink.

"is that ben, joe? your best friend?"

joe smiled and wrapped his arm around her shoulders, "yeah, want to meet him?"

"sure!"

they walked toward the kitchen, i heard them all talking and laughing while i walked into my room, immediately going toward my cabinet.

i took out a small vanilla candle and lit it, my hand shaking for some unknown reason.

the smell calmed me down, it smelled gorgeous, it smelled like.. ice-cream dates on a hot day..

after a few more minutes, i heard the door shutting, and then there was silence.

oh, ben left too.

well, why wouldn't he? i mean, i kind of reject him, then when he asks me out, i'm already going out with someone else.

why would he want to stay in the same house as me now?

he wants to 'prove' himself to me? how can he do that? what does he mean by proving himself?

i sighed, lying on my warm bed, staring at the ceiling, my eyes drowsy.

i checked the time on my phone, seven twenty-five pm, i need to finish my dinner.

i walked out of my room, grabbed my half eaten plate of food and brought it back to my room.

i ate the food slowly, thinking, about a lot of things really.

about my outfit for friday, how much money i'll bring, how pretty caitlin would look, about.. ben..

about his goddamn smile, his cheeky grin, his gorgeous fucking eyes, how he was barely taller than i was.

he's handsome, yes, but.. i don't know.. i just don't feel that way about him, he's like a brother to me.

maybe.. his hurt eyes were true..
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im writing chpt 37 atm is that too long???? since it's short chapters i wanted it to be long idk?