You and I (A Janoskians Fan Fiction and sequel to Forbidden Love)

Chapter 31 - Sorry

Chapter 31.

"I wondered when you would come out" I comment as Katie goes back in, he comes over and hands me the jacket in his hand, I slide it on and it smells of him, "thank you."

He sits the opposite end of the lounger and just looks at me, he looks tired, "I don't even know where to start" he looks into his hands, "how can I even begin to apologise?"

"How about a start of sorry?" I prompt.

"That doesn't even cut it Kayla!" his head shoots up to look at me.

I raise my eyebrow at him, "I'm sorry. I'm sorry for just shouting at you, I'm sorry for not believing in you. I've beat myself up about this for the last few weeks, just the whole baby thing hit a nerve I suppose, there was so much going on and I feel like I wasn't there for you. I'm not having a pity party for one but it's true, we could of handled it all a lot better. Sorry just doesn't cut how I'm feeling" he grabs my hand.

"I'm so upset you were taken in with the lies and it just seemed you believed her, I have never felt so alone in my entire life, I thought you were always going to be the one that was there for me no matter what but I couldn't count on anyone. I contemplated going home, to England, so many times because without you there's nothing there for me in Australia, if I didn't have you, I have nothing" I look at him, tears brimming.

"I am so sorry. I am here for you 100% it's me and you against the world, the other day when I saw your ring in the envelope, it hit home, I kept pushing you away but I didn't know how to rectify it, I kept seeing you with Marc I guess I let my jealousy take over but when I spoke to Katie about it, she told me she would sort it and to keep Chantel sweet for a bit longer" he holds my face, he looks like he's going to cry.

"Watching White Chicks the other day brought back how it was when we first met, we thought it was stressful back then but look at what our lives are like now. Do you know how it feels to be framed and no-one believe you?" I shake my head.

"No, I don't but I'm so sorry I didn't believe you, I'd give anything to go back a few months. Kayla please" he begs.

"Please what? Luke, I love you more than anything in the world" I start.

"Do you know how good it is to hear you say that?" tears fall down his cheeks.

"And I want anything more to forgive and forget but I don't think it's anything I can do overnight. I've been thinking of this moment for the past two weeks of us finally realising what we want, and I know I want you. Luke Anthony Mark Brooks, there's literally nothing more than what I want from life than you, but I can't keep doing this whatever we're doing. It needs to be all or nothing, I know this time it was my fault and I regret it massively, I regret the stupid dumb decision to make you see other girls, how could I not see that you didn't want to be with anyone else other than me, I kept pushing and pushing and it's got us nowhere, if anything worse than where we were" he pulls me into his arms as I cry on his shoulder.

"Don't be daft, I should have put up more than a fight and it's no excuse but I only went there in the first place because it was so hard going from having you in my bed every night to nothing, it was lonely and I'm the one that brought the physco into our lives and for that I am sorry. I can tell you sorry a thousand times a day for the rest of our lives but it still wouldn't feel enough and I'll do anything it takes to win you back, you're the one that I'm going to spend the rest of my life with you" he says into my ear as he strokes my hair.

"It's going to take time Luke, but it's all or nothing for me, make or break now, I want you to wipe my tears away not cause them, no fighting ever again" I sit back to look at him.