Neu Roses

Car Ride

Onika's POV
November 22(12:56pm)
Airport

I woke up to a empty bed and the lights being on, I sat up and looked around until my eyes landed on the window seeing we landed. "Bey?" I quickly asked as I rushed to get out of the bed "Bey?" I asked louder as I was about to run out of the room but when I opened the door I tripped and almost fell but she caught me. "Why are you running?" She asked with a bland voice "I-I thought you left me" I spoke feeling like more of a idiot. She stood me up correctly and I just stared at her as she did "Go get your stuff so we can go"

She walked away getting her bags and stepped off the now open plane while I watched then followed her with my things that I swiftly grabbed, I went to the car I assumed was waiting on us and when I was about to put my thing in the back seat she took my bags out of my hand and put them in the trunk "Go get in the passenger" she spoke which I barely. I walked to the passenger and got in waiting for her, when she did she buckled up and started driving "Can we not go there acting like this?...I know you're still mad at me-"I'm not mad at you, but I do get what you're saying and we don't have to" she cut into what I was saying.

"Then why are you like this with me, so quiet and distant...you said even if I did get a boyfriend you would be happy for me and you would still be the same way" I voiced now looking at her "I don't think we should have this discussion right now" "But I think we should, let's just clear the air right now. You say how you feel and I'll say how I feel" "This isn't go-"Bey please? I don't care what response I get I just want more than directions from you, I just want your true feelings right now"

She huffed some as she turned "I don't want to you're not going to li-"I don't care I want you to tell me your fee-"I DONT KNWO WHAT IM FEELING ONIKA! I DONT KNOW, I DONT KNOW IF IM OKAY OR IF IM NOT OR IF I EVEN WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE! I'm tired...I'm so tired I'm tired of bullshit, I'm tired of things ruining my happiness. I didn't work this hard to just let everything come down on me at once and you were the only thing that kept me calm and happy but now, now I'm really just here." She expressed as she continued to drive her hands were tight on the wheel and her face was hard and angry "I tried to push back the thought of you and him and acting as if it never happened but shit you make it so hard, and all I can really think about is if what had was more of a waste of time than something enjoyable."

I sat there taking in every ounce of what she said and bit my lip holding back the sadness that waved onto me, "Do you feel like you wasted you're time with me, I understand if yo-"I don't...you were the best thing to happen to me Beyoncé" "Then why did this happen?" "Because I can't think for myself, and when I do...something happens to make me second guess it all" I whispered "I'm so sorry I did this to you, I still love you a deep love that I know isn't going to just go away I just couldn't think with everyone pointing me in a different direction from the one I was going in. I regret hurting you and myself for listening to people who don't have a thing to do with what was going on between us." I spoke into the sad silence. "Do you still see yourself having my kids." She spoke quietly leading me to quickly turn my head to her "Of course, I don't see myself being as happy as I was with you with anyone else. While you were gone I just closed myself in from anyone who cared about me like or anything similar as to how you do because o was afraid of what was going on in my mind and what I would look like asking someone if this was okay... when Dave came I actually talked to him. I asked him how you were but he wouldn't really tell me he said that you were worried and that you loved me and God that made me so happy inside but then it just changed and I don't really know why.." I spoke she turned into a someone's garage space parking in front of the closed garage.

She lowers her head as she put the car in park and quietly tapped her fingers on the steering wheel "I don't think we'll be able to act like you want us to, this is still too much of a grey area between this and I-I still can't get my head around this and be okay." She spoke and I just pushed my lips together to the side of my face holding back anything showing I was saddened by her words "Bey please don't give up on us" I whispered and then looked at her "Onika I-"Don't, I don't know what I would do without you because I'm barely making it now. Just please don't give up on us, on me and love just don't because I have so much love for you-"But you don't love me like I love you" "You're right I don't because I love you more, I'm just scared. I'm scared of getting so deep into it and you leave because you can and you can always find someone better and less needy and more attrac-"But they're still not you" She spoke "Bey I-"You are the only woman I want and you thinking I'd leave you at some point is just a made up fear because I won't."

"If there was a chance of that then this would have never happened none of this, we would be back at me avoiding you like before but we're not because I want you. I understand that we're still young and have a long road ahead of us but that doesn't mean shit compared to how much I love you, I told you no matter what you're going to be mine and I mean that. I'm trying to wait on you but this is taking too long Onika, I just need you to make you're decision before it's too late." And with that she got out of the car getting her things from the trunk, my eyes were wide and my mouth was closed from what she had just said.

I gulped before unbuckling my seatbelt and getting my things as well, "Calm down, I'm not trying to rush you but I'm just telling you the truth. You may think you have time but that can all change at the blink of an eye..." she said and moved for the front door as I got my last bag and closed the trunk, she knocked on the dark wooden door that had a gold knob. After a minute someone came to the door turning the locks which then revealed a young woman who looked just like Bey but younger with thicker eyebrows and warm brown eyes "Bey?" She asked as she looked at her and Beyoncé's response was a closed mouth smile that was slightly awkward "Oh my-"the girl hugged her barely standing at her height.

Bey dropped her begs and hugged the girl back "Hi Solange" she spoke and I heard soft sniffles "I missed you so much" 'Solange' said as she held her tighter "I-I missed you too" Bey quietly spoke sounding slightly unsure but I know she was, last night while she assumed I was sleep I felt her move so I woke up seeing she was looking at some old pictures I assume of her and her sister. I watched them happy they actually did comeback together but sad that they basically knew nothing about the other, "I'm so sorry, I didn't introduce myself." Her sister said pulling back some "I'm Solange, you must be Onika" she said so kindly making me look at Bey surprised she already told her about me.

"Umm yea that's me" I spoke shaking her hand that was out for me "Well, come in so you can put your things away. My mother is at a friends house at friends house at the moment but she should be back soon" She spoke and lead us to the rooms. After we settled down in the living room Solange told us more about herself as did Bey but leaving somethings out still cautious of this as a whole. Solange is around the same age as me, she spoke of how she had been slowly starting her music career while still going to school then to college as a back up plan. We continued to talk until the front door began to open, I saw Bey physically stiffen which has never happened before I reached for her hand that flinched before I actually got a hold of it "Solange? Where are you?" We heard and Bey's hand tightened around mine as it got warmer and her leg shook.

"Bey, calm down" I whispered to her as the footsteps got closer and an older woman came into view with highlights in her hair and her make up done well, "Beyoncé" she said with a voice that I couldn't really decipher. The silence could actually be heard as Bey looked at the woman I assume is her mother, her eyes weren't readable so I was about to speak "Tina" I heard her say in the same tone as the woman "Umm, Onika this is my mother Tina, mom this is Onika" Solange said with a small smile "Hi" I softly spoke with a small wave and smile while she just nodded her head in greeting but her eyes stayed trained in Bey as she did the same. This isn't going to end well..

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Alright imma take a little nap then wake up and watch my daddy🤪 freaking love this woman and she might have a album dropping soon, umm Apple Music maybe on my phone soon cause I ain't miss this.
-Scokby😭