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Onika's POV
December 25th
Cabin, Virginia

   She was so soft, I laid on her neck but my free hand ran down to her leg feeling her third one. I've learned that since I'm pregnant my hormones are high for sex, it's good and bad but mainly bad.. I slept but my dreams kept running back to us and what was going on. She still didn't give me my punishment which I hope she forgot and she's been overly nice.. Very weird.

"Nika, you starting things you will not finish." She whispered looking me in the eye though hers sat so low since she was waking up. "Good morning, and I know it's the hormones.. and because I just like to touch you." I softly smiled kissing her neck and chest. I looked back at her kissing her chin, "There's breakfast downstairs I believe, can we get ready together?" I asked getting her to softly smile for a moment then nodded kissing my head. I kept the smile I had, I got off of her going to the bathroom connected to the room with her following behind. "We never finished our discussion, about therapy and counseling for us." She voiced as she rinsed her toothbrush and I did the same bitting my lip at her words.

I looked to her then back at myself in the mirror as I put toothpaste on the brush, "I know, I'm kind of avoiding it.." I quietly spoke barely looking to her through the mirror before putting the toothbrush in my mouth. A sigh fell from her. "You shouldn't be.. it's to benefit us both." She voiced before she started to actually brush as well. I spit out some before speaking again, "It does but I also know that you hold a lot of things in and I'm afraid of that outcome. Bey, you don't always say how you feel. You go until you explode or just can't accept anything worse than that and go to drugs and drinking. I'm glad you stopped but I triggered it again and I fear that for us both because you were willing to kill us all over that."

   She spit as well before looking me in the eye, "You don't think I had a valid reason to why I wanted to?" She asked cleaning her brush before the mouth wash as I did my last spit and repeated her actions. "Nika, you lied to my face. Not only you but my best friend with each other and to be honest that whole thing you told me I don't completely believe you told me the truth." She voiced after spitting the mouth wash out I could only stare until she started to clean her side up. I was speechless because I truly can not be mad, "Bey, I don't want you to forgive me until you're ready but I want to work this so we can both be at peace. I'm scared you go through all the emotions and realize you want to leave." I voiced sadly.

   She didn't say a thing as she brushed her hair, "I'm going to use the guest bathroom in the hall to finish, you can use the rest of this one. I'll see you at breakfast." She spoke as she finished. She kissed my head then left out the bathroom while I could only stare where she last stood. I finished getting ready myself before I went and changed clothes. Now that we've gotten to this point I think I should cover myself up more not for Bey and her territorial acts but because someone I did once lay with, I didn't even have real feelings for her.. right?

I looked in the full body mirror in the corner of our room, the pants I stole from her and her shirt always looked great on me. "It's too big and you know it.." I heard her voice as she came back in coming up behind me in her wife beater and now boxers under her almost sagging shorts. "I just like to feel like I'm with you all the time.." I responded looking at her through the mirror til she came and kissed my head. "In a way you are, you have some of me in you." She softly smiled looking down at me before showering me with kisses gaining a smile from me. "We have to go before all the foods gone... The thing about earlier is, we both have to run that risk but I would never truly be out of you or our child's life." She added pulling back from me a bit; I nodded sneaking a kiss on the lips before rushing down the stairs with her following shortly behind me. Still avoiding..

She pulled my seat for me at the table as I spoke quiet hellos to everyone, "How did you all sleep?" Wayne asked looking between us. I didn't want to answer so I waited for Bey to; "We slept well yeah?" She asked looking to me getting a nod and gentle smile. "Would you like me to make your plate?" I asked softly grabbing her hand under the table, I knew Robyn was looking but I chose to ignore it it's the matter of if Bey will. She nodded mouthing thank you as I got up feeling her gently running her hand down my leg under eyes view. I had to pause before moving, i made way to the kitchen putting everything I knew she'd want on her plate and some extra just in case.