Neu Roses

Orphan

Beyoncé's POV

I got Nika to eat some chicken nuggets and fries from Chic fil a while I sat across from her at the dining table and just watched her while she ate nervously, while she did Solange came down stairs her face wasn't as bright as it has been from our short time here. I got up looking at her worried seeing she was still in deep thought so I walked past her and grabbed her arm in the process taking her into the hall, "Whats wrong?" I asked as I looked down at her seeing something was wrong "I don't wanna live here anymore" she said looking at me sadly.

"Why not?" She shook her head "She's not okay" Solange said looking me in the eye "She hasn't been since you left and dad died, I don't want to be with her anymore." "Solange what happened?" "What hasn't happened?! She's been drinking and smoking her life away, that's why I called you. She kept saying you weren't her child and all this other stuff but I barely found out I had a sister besides the little memories of you I have, when I found you I had to know why you left but now I see why and I wish I was old enough to go with you. I can't stay here anymore she's...she's not a mother she never really has been, she does the bare minimum and I used to be okay with that but I don't want that anymore I want more." She said with so much sadness. "Sola-"I plan on leaving soon, I was going to ask you if I could go with you but I knew you'd probably say no so I found my own apartment and saved up my money so I-"Stop stop, you aren't going to move into your own apartment. I don't want you to go through what I did." "But you cane out fine, I know what I can do as a career I already have people looking at me." She said trying to explain herself

"I understand that but I'm not letting you grow up on your own, now I can't just take you from here that's not how it works because it could be considered kidnapping. How about you just stay and if anything happens then call me and I will fly my people out to come get you okay?" I said and she unwillingly nodded "It'll be okay" I spoke as I pulled her into a secure hug "Where's your mom?" I asked holding her some before pulling back "She's at work, she doesn't get off until around eight or nine" I nodded "Is there anything you need?" I asked. "No I-"Solange tell me" I spoke knowing it

"I need a real mother" she said with all seriousness but her eyes were so sad and tearful, I sighed and understood what she meant. Shit I wish I had a real mother, someone who actually gave a fuck about me at the slightest bit; I hugged her and kissed her head "It's alright, you'll be okay...we'll be okay" I said needing to tell myself that as well. She held onto me tight and I turned my head seeing Nika looking at us with a pitiful like face, "Let's all just go lay down, let today roll over" I said aloud for Nika to hear also as I pulled back. Solange nodded and waved at Nika sadly with a small smile before going upstairs.

I turned my attention to Nicki as I heard Solange close her room door, "Are you done eating?" I asked as she held wide eyes wanting to know my next set of instructions while she nodded a little "Then go get ready to lay down, I'll clean this up" I smiled softly she got up and made her way upstairs. I trashed what was left that wasn't food and ate what was because I didn't even get myself food, Solange had eaten hers while I was trying to get into the room Nika was staying in.

When I ate what was I trashed it and turned off the lights before going up to my room and dressing down tiredly, I didn't go to sleep anywhere I just drive and went to the strip. I know Nicki would be mad about it shit probably worse than I imagine so I don't plan on telling her, and I know it won't be in the news. I've been ducking the police all my life so ducking the paparazzi ain't shit, I can still feel the liquor and weed in my system as I took off my shirt and shoes before actually laying down. I let my body sink into the bed and I knew it was over but as my eyes closed completely and the black out I wanted so bad to happen came along something woke me up. More specifically someone.