Matthew's P.O.V
I get back from eating out with the boys and grab my phone from the counter. I accidentally left it here so I check my notifications. "Oh no." I groan when I look at my phone screen.
"What's wrong man?" asks Carter.
"My sister tried to call me." I say as I put my phone down.
"Aren't you gonna call her back?"
"No. She made it pretty clear that she didn't want to hear from me."
"I know but she called. What if she really needed to talk to you... you know?" I understood what Carter was hinting at.
"Alright." I sigh. "I guess I should give her a call." I find Lillian's name in my contacts and press call. Worry grows in me with each ring that she doesn't pick up. I hope she didn't actually hurt herself again.
Relief washes through me when she finally answers. "Matt?" she says loudly. I hear music and shouting I the background.
"Lillian where are you?"
"Um... a party." A party?
"But you hate parties."
"Why does everybody say that? Am I that lame that you automatically think I won't like parties?" She sounds annoyed.
"You're not lame. Who's party is it anyway?" I want to know.
"None of your business." she snaps.
"Sorry if you're mad at me for calling but you called me first and I just want to know how you're doing."
"Maryann Smith. I'm at her house." She better be kidding.
"I can't believe you would actually go to her house. If I was there I never would've-"
"Well good thing you're not here then. Because you would keep me from having fun."
"Lilly I just don't want you drinking or-"
"You know what? I don't need you checking up on me. You aren't in charge of me and I can do what I want." I hear a click indicating that she hung up on me.
"Well she's doing fine without me." I tell Carter.
"That's good, right? Isn't that what you wanted?" he looks at me.
"Yeah I mean I just thought she'd miss me a little more." In fact I thought she'd be totally miserable by herself.
Last time I left I was only an hour away and she tried to kill herself. I remember that day perfectly.
flashback
It's already been two hours of meeting fans and I'm extremely tired. Don't get me wrong I love meeting them but after a while you kinda just want to go home. Home. Maybe I should give Lillian a call. I know she's been having a rough time lately.
I try to call her but she doesn't answer. I panic a little but it's probably nothing. Still I should call one of her friends just to go check on her. How about Alex he lives the closest. "Hello?" he answers.
"Alex? This is Matthew, you know Lillian's brother."
"Haha I know who you are."
"I just tried to call my sister but she didn't pick up. It's probably nothing but would you check on her please? Just in case."
"Yeah of course. I hope she's okay." he says concerned.
"Great thanks man." I hang up and decide to try Lillian again.
"Hello?" She says shakily. Has she been crying?
"Lillian? Are you okay?" Please say yes.
"I can't do it anymore, Matty." Oh no.
"Woah Lillian calm down. Do what?"
"Everything. Live" Shit. I turn to Carter and tell him, "Call 911. Send them to my house hurry." He gets out his phone and calls. I need to stall Lillian.
"Hey listen to me. You're strong you can get through this. Don't do anything you might regret. Please Lillian." Now I'm crying. She can't leave me.
"I miss you." She says and my heart aches for her.
"I'm only an hour away. Do you want me to come home?" I don't care what she says I'm coming home.
"No just meet your fans."
"Lil I'm sorry I haven't been around lately. Please don't do anything, I love you."
"I love you too. I'm sorry you have such a messed up sister." Messed up?
"You aren't. Stay there I'm coming home. Don't hurt yourself."
"I can't. Everything already hurts and I'm tired of it. I'm so sorry."
"Lillian don't!" but it's too late. She already hung up. I quickly text Alex 'I think she's trying to kill herself I already called 911 but you need to hurry and try to stop her' and I run to my car as fast as I have ever ran.
All I remember thinking while driving to Lillian is please don't die.
end of flashback
"Are you okay?" I look up. It's Cameron.
"What?"
"You're crying." I didn't even realize.
"I'm fine but I think I'll go to bed." I guess my baby sister doesn't need me anymore.
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Beginnings and Endings (magcon fanfic)
Fanfiction{ ONGOING } When Matthew decides to move to California with his Vine buddies what will happen to his little sister, Lillian as she deals with high school, an abusive father and losing the most important thing in her life: her brother. Will Lillian g...
