A/N: this is one of my very few drabbles that if eel comfortable posting and tbh it's cute lmao enjoy !
WARNINGS: nothing only cole being sad :(
SUMMARY: cole can't sleep because of the overwhelming stress of being a famous actor, but you're there to support him.
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- cole's eyes were glued to the ceiling, the bedroom was dark only having light from the tv that was on low volume
- a heavy feeling weighed down in his chest, exhaustion and confusion
- he flipped over onto his back carefully to not wake you up
- he wasn't successful
- you stirred i your sleep until your eyes fluttered open training in his
- "sorry" he whispered
- your eyes opened a little wider nothing the bags that carried his eyes
- "what's wrong?" you ask lifting your head from your arms,
- cole shook his head, "nothing, just can't sleep."
- your eyes narrowed, "cole, in the seven years i've known you, i know when something's on your mind."
- cole sighed, his hands finding each other fiddling with his fingers
- "you know you can talk to me, right? i wouldn't judge any problem you have." you spoke softly sitting up,
- cole nodded, "i know y/n/n."
- you didn't want to pry, to force him to talk to you when it might make him uncomfortable, so instead your hand gently took one of his softly squeezing it
- cole gently dragged you back down into bed, slinging an arm across your waist as you faced his chest
- "i don't know how to explain it, i'm just scared."
- you draw circles on his arms, "of?"
- he shrugged, "being a failure? there are so many young people who look up to me, who see me as a role model, but sometimes i mess up, a lot of times i mess up, what kind of role model would i be if i'm constantly messing up?"
- you smiled sadly, "a realistic one?"
- "i want to be a good role model for them, but it's so god damn hard. i don't want to mess up, if i continue messing up they'll find a new one and it'll just show that i practically suck."
- you shook your head, "no, don't say that."
- cole opened his mouth to continue but you cut him off, "i think society tends to push out an image of celebrities living perfect lives, having zero problems but hell, look where we are right now cole. you messing up, shows that you, yourself, are a human being. i bet you, the people who look up to you as a role model, would love you despite how much you mess up. they'd love you because of how hard you work, and how much effort you put into making them happy. so don't, don't call yourself a failure. the only way you'd be a failure is if you give up on yourself."
- cole was silent, you opened your eyes looking through your lashes up at him,
- "i love you."
- you gently squeeze his hand, "i know."
- you sensed the eye roll based off of the way his chest moved due to the way he chuckles
