He Who Conquers Others Is Strong, He Who Conquers Himself Is Mighty

Leave The Fire For The Field

Work was a drag. It always seemed to be as of late. I couldn't quite decide if that was because of the nauesa, the exhaustion, or the fact that my head wasn't in it because my heart was all about the baby. I was tough here and probably even tougher at home. And Julian couldn't be more understanding right now. I was so lucky. Every emotional outburst, every ridiculous craving and request he never questioned. And speaking of emotional outbursts, the mother of all mood swings was coming my way...

Buzz Buzz

My phone lit up, vibrating across the desk as I slumped back in the chair staring at the files mounting up on my desk. Asking Amelia to move over here could not come quick enough... But I slowly reached forward and grabbed my phone off the desk. Seeing it was a text off Jamie I grinned widely. She'd been on holiday with Danny for a few days now and I was dying to know how it was going. I eagerly opened up the message and scanned the words.

Jamie:

We ran into Ella. She asked about Jules, then shifted over to asking about you and Jules as a couple...

The anger inside of me bubbled up instantly. I gripped my phone tighter as I ran over the text again. I replied immediately;

Me:

WHAT??? Are you kidding me?!?!?!

But I got no answer. I waited and waited, but nothing. I growled in frustration. How can she leave me hanging like that?! I threw my phone down and started ahead. What was she asking about us for? what the hell was she doing in Hawaii? We're married, why can't she just fucking leave us alone. Did she really want Julian that bad? Did he know?! Ugh. I needed to halt this line of though right now. It wasn't good for me. Not good for baby Edelman. I needed to relax. Deep breaths...

So what if she asked about us. But its none of her fucking business....

It's way too late for her. She missed her chance with him. But she tried to sleep with him...

But he doesn't want her. And Danny will have put her straight. You hope Dola told her. He's too sweet for his own good....

Ugh Penny! Stop it! Don't think like this! I ran a hand through my long hair and took a deep calming breath. It's not good for the baby. I nodded to myself in agreeance. I need to have a distraction. I checked the clock. 4pm. Fuck this. I'm leaving.

I grabbed my bag and turned off my computer- after shooting Nick an email telling him I was heading out.

"is everything okay sis?" he popped his head out of his office as I passed. I stopped to look up at him and smiled. "it's just been a long day. I was down to leave at 5.30 today-"

"It's fine Pen. Go home. Put your feet up. I'll take care of anything that comes in" he nodded and I smiled gratefully. "Thank you." I sighed, pulling him into the hallway for a hug. "I love you" I whimpered a little, feeling tears cover my eyeballs. "hey, hey it's okay. I love you too" he cooed at me, "but I gotta say, this softer emotional you has me on edge." he smirked, "I'll be glad when the ball breaking Pen is back" he teased. I scoffed at him and pushed him away from me. "I'll see you in the morning Dickhead" I laughed at him as he chuckled. "G'night my sweet sister" he chuckled more as I shot him a playful glare before heading to the elevator. But I wasn't going home just yet. I decided me and the baby needed some retail therapy.

.................

So a little more than 2 hours later, I was back home and showering the days grime off my body. We were due at Tom and G's by 8pm for dinner. But Julian wasn't home yet. So obviously I hadn't tackled him about the slight issue I had come across either this afternoon. But that was all about to change when I heard him come into the house.