He Who Conquers Others Is Strong, He Who Conquers Himself Is Mighty

Family Day Out

Ok, so I said there was only going to be one more chapter, but this is like 3k words already, so I've decided to split it. So please enjoy, and the final chapter will be up soon xx

"In the city, the Country, the mountains or the sea. Wherever you are baby, that's where I wanna be..." I sung gently as I rocked Leo in my arms. He had just had his 9pm feed and I was ready to put him down for some sleep. But I couldn't resist holding him an extra few minutes before I set him down with a soft little bunny rabbit he had taken to snuggling with. "good night sausage" I whispered gently stroking the soft downy hair on the top of his head. "I love you more than anything else in this world" I sighed, looking down at him adoringly. 

"more than anything?" I heard a whisper. I jumped and looked to the doorway, seeing Julian leaning against it with his arms folded across his chest. I rolled my eyes at him and after giving Leo one more look, I turned to leave the room so he could sleep soundly. Before his next feed anyway. "don't start Edelman" I smirked at him, looking him over. He sent me a smirk before allowing me to pass by him and head down to our room. 

"That boy is going to have an unhealthy obsession if you keep singing Backstreet Boys songs to him" he added following close behind me. I sniggered and turned to face him. "He'll have a healthy appreciation" I corrected him, but he was having none of it. But before he said another word I moved over to him and reached up onto my tip toes and pushed my lips against his. 

"hmmm" a low growl vibrated through his chest as I felt his rough hands smooth over the exposed skin of my waist. It had been while since we had any skin to skin contact. "I've missed you baby" he groaned, pulling away to catch my neck with his lips. I let out a shaky breath feeling exactly the same. Lately, since Leo was born we were both that tired that when we got to bed we were both asleep as soon as our heads hit the pillows. And honestly, even though I fancied him more than ever, especially seeing him with Leo, I was kinda scared of being intimate with him. "I love you J" I sighed as I allowed myself to be swept up in his big strong arms. "I love you too sweetheart" he whispered, stroking my hair. "c'mon, I wanna get you in bed. Wanna snuggle" he said, nuzzling my cheek with his fat squishy nose. A shy smile graced my face and I nodded. We finally parted and I made my way to the bathroom to brush my teeth and cleanse my face before bed.

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When I came back out of the bathroom, he was sitting up in bed naked from the waist up, showing off his deliciously toned physique smothered in a thick covering of hair. I bit my lip a tiny bit as I fought the blush that I could feel trying to dust my cheeks and I made my way over to my side of the bed. 

I felt his eyes on me as I began to undress, and shamefully I kept my back towards him as I pulled off the hoodie that grace my top half- along with the maternity bra that was keeping my seemingly ever growing, milk producing boobs in one place. I sighed as I threw it onto the floor and for the only part of the day felt comfortable letting them 'hang loose' as it were. Gone were the insecurities I once had about the way I looked, and now a whole load of new ones were arising. Don't get me wrong, I had just had a baby, and the way I looked was waaaay down on the list; but because I had just had a baby, I felt a little unsettled. 

"please babe, don't keep hiding yourself from me" my husbands voice gently broke the comfortable silence in the room. I sighed and looked over my shoulder at him, hesitating in taking down my joggers. "I love every inch of you, and I miss seeing your body" he said, almost pleading with those blue eyes of his. I felt my blushes now start to burn at my cheeks as I knew he knew I was feeling a little body conscious. "you've never looked more beautiful to me" he whispered, gently taking my hand. I turned my head again to look at him and he was leaning across the bed just to touch my hand. I sent him a small smile and stepped out of my trousers before slipping between the sheets, meeting his open arms and I gladly settled against his warm chest.