He Who Conquers Others Is Strong, He Who Conquers Himself Is Mighty

Lucky

I got home a little earlier than planned, walking through the door to a chilled out Winnie laying on the couch, feet up in the air displaying her lady parts to the world. I let a smile work its way onto my face, she never failed to make me feel happy. "good evening Winniepeg" I cooed at her, bending down as much as I could to tickle her tummy. 

"Hey mama" Julian's voice then took my attention. I looked from Win to find him walking through the house towards us. "hey" I sighed, trying my best to block out the shit that I had discovered today. "I was hoping I'd see you before I headed to Rob's place" he smiled, snaking his arms around my ever expanding waist. I let out another feeble sigh and tried to worm my way out of his grasp. "babe?" he frowned at me, "what's wrong?" he asked, turning to look at me after I pulled away from him. I couldn't even look at him. "I um...I read something today that I think you're gonna wanna hear.... "I swallowed hard, not even wanting to address this with him. "you're scaring me short stack. what the hell is it?" his blue eyes filled with worry. I took another deep breath and ran a hand through my hair. My own eyes filling with tears as I started to speak, "I was at work, taking a break- s-so I thought I'd catch up on the latest gossip" I stammered through, seeing him nodding frantically, "and then I read a headline...b-basically it accused me of cheating on you. T-that the baby isn't yours!" I sobbed. Tears free falling down my face, bringing my mascara smearing down my cheeks too. "baby, baby, baby" Julian cooed, instantly coming over to cradle me in his arms. I gripped onto his shirt and tried to stifle my sobbing. "it's okay sweetheart, I know it ain't true" he softly spoke, running his hand up and down my back. "honestly, we have gotten off pretty easy over the years" he chuckled lightly. I smiled a little at that but stayed clung to his chest. "b-but why would someone make up something so sick?" I questioned, blinking away more tears. "people who wanna make a quick buck writing shitty articles that could ruin peoples lives." he retorted. "believe me I've had my fair share..." he sighed, "you don't frickin' deserve one of em" he added, petting my head with his free hand. "neither do you. Especially this" I sniffed, looking up at him. "it's okay baby, you know we're made of strong stuff" he smiled down at me. I sent him a feeble smile back and nodded, "I love you, and you love me. That's all that matters. And that little man in there" he said, smoothing his hand over my stomach, "is gonna be the luckiest little guy in the world having you for his mama" he whispered, making me cry all over again. "I love you babe" 

"I love you too J" I smiled, reaching up on my tip toes for a kiss. "now, I gotta call Rob, tell him I can't make it" he said, after pulling away from me. "huh, why?" I asked as I let him move out of my arms. "I ain't leaving you tonight" he frowned, as he searched for his phone. "what? why?" I asked, watching him wandering around the living room. "not after this..."he said, gesturing to me- assuming he meant the article and my being upset. "Julian, it's fine. Go." I told him, yet he continued to search for his phone. "Julian Francis! Listen to me!" I scolded him, thrusting my hands on my hips. He smirked and ignored me. "remember earlier when I was threatening to sit on you?!" I reminded him, "yes ma'am" he replied with a slight chuckle. "well then, it ain't a threat any longer" I said, moving over to him. I stood inches from him, looking up at his well honed form, "it's a promise" I said darkly, narrowing my eyes at him. He bit back a laugh and pretended to be intimidated by me. "I promise you, I am fine." I said, "go and have fun with the guys. All I want to do is get into my pjs, get into bed and watch some tv with Win." I told him. "I'll be fine" I told him. He sighed as he stared at me, I could see him contemplating his options, "you need some time to relax, go have some guy time. Soon you'll be waist deep in dirty nappies" I smirked, "diapers babe!" he whined at me. But I rolled my eyes, "nappies" I shot back with an angelic smile. He growled at me as I walked away but I let out a giggle and looked over my shoulder at him, "man if you weren't pregnant-"

"Don't you even finish that sentence Edelman! Or I swear when I've had this baby you are gonna be on rations!" I warned, "whaaat?!" he stood from his crouched-about to punch on me- stance and looked at me with big eyes. "you know what I mean Julian Francis." I said with a knowing look and a raised brow. "babe I've told ya! it's weird" he cried. I huffed and shook my head at him. "you know one thing though" I mused, "what's that?" he asked cautiously. "I've never met a guy who needs it as much as you" I started- ignoring the smug ego enhanced grin I was getting right now, "so how in the hell are you surviving without...doing the 'do?" I asked him. His smile turned a little sheepish, "I got so many pics of you on my phone babe. I get a little one on one time when I'm here and you're working" he smirked and my mouth dropped open. "I shouldn't have asked"

.........

"I swear Liv, like has she not gotten anything better to do than spread shitty rumours to split us up?!" I whinged later that evening. I was laid in the middle of our bed, Win fast asleep on one side of me, a bag of chips on the other and my Mac balancing on my barely there bump. "You don't know it's here though sweetie" She said cautiously. Her brown eyes looking back at me with concern. She face timed me about 20 minutes ago when she'd seen the 'article' for herself. "but you think it's her though too right?" I asked her, throwing another handful of chips into my mouth. Olivia shrugged, "it could be anyone." she replied. "and if Jules isn't too hung up on it either, then maybe you should just forget about it" she said, "it's not good for you or the baby stressing yourself out about it" she added. "I know, I know. It's just, I never realised how much something like this can affect you. Having lies written about you I mean" I sighed, Olivia nodded back, knowing all too well about that. "this is just a million times worse because it's about a child" she sighed. I nodded, patting the top of my bump gently. Tears welled up in my eyes again and I sighed. "where is Daddy now anyway?" she smiled. "having a guys night at Rob's" I rolled my eyes as I smiled. "oh lord..." 

"uh-huh." 

"Is he stoked that Amelia's moving to the States?" she asked and I shook my head, "he doesn't know yet" I laughed, "technically we're still yet to have her official response. So until we know for sure, nothing is being mentioned to anyone really" I told her. "gotcha" she nodded wisely, "but honestly, it will be so freakin' hilarious to see his face when he finds out" she laughed, "I just hope he doesn't flake out on her though. Go all 'Rob Gronkowski- commitment Phobe' on her" I said. Liv pulled a worried face, "I think he's too scared of you to do her like that" she grinned. I laughed, "there's that" I nodded, "but knowing her, she'll plough herself into her work and won't have time for Gronk's shenanigans anyway" I said, "with any luck..." I added. 

"so anyway, what time is the scan tomorrow?" Olivia beamed an excited smile, "10.30" I smiled back at her, my butterflies awakening at the mere thought. "I can't believe you're going to find out the sex of baby E tomorrow!" she sighed with love and excitement. "I know...I'm really tempted to just turn on Julian tomorrow and be like 'actually I've decided I wanna wait and see when it comes out'" I giggled, "oh my god you cannot do that! That is soo cruel!" she gasped, "I like it!" she added and we both cackled. "he would literally flip his lid!" I giggled, holding my side. "knowing him he'd probably bribe the nurse or something" She giggled. "oh god yes" I snorted, "he's so convinced it's a boy though" I rolled my eyes, "and you're team girl?" she asked and I nodded, "but only because he thinks it's a boy. One of us has to be on team girl" I laughed. "what do you want?" she asked me, and it was actually the first time some one has asked. "really, I don't care. All I want is a healthy baby. There's not enough women in the world lucky enough to even get pregnant, so I just thank God I am fortunate to have a baby to call my own" I replied, seeing her eyes fill up once again. "You're meant to be the hormonal one babe!" she cried, wiping the tears from her eyes. I laughed aloud- which turned into a yawn. "oh look, it's time you went to get your rest sweetie" she said, "it's already midnight" she added, glancing to her phone. "I know" I yawned again. "and with such an important day ahead!" she beamed another smile. "please let me know as soon as you find out in the morning. Even if you text me it! I'm desperate to know" she said, and I nodded, promising her I'd call or something. "So go get some rest sweetie...and it's good to see you're laying off the bagels..." I was about to protest when she burst out laughing. "for that I might forget to text you tomorrow..." I threatened, earning a gasp from her side of the conversation. Cackling back at her I cut the call before she had the chance to attempt to redeem herself. No one could come between my bagels and I. Except for maybe heart burn. 

Which I had right now. Ugh. Where the hell did I put my Tums?!