Middle of Everything

CHAPTER 11 : Dream

Few days after the accident my first time entering someone dreams started when I stayed with Parisa the whole night as she went home from my funeral because my mother insisted her to get some rest. She is quiet all night on her way home. She never touches her phone or even watches her favorite show. I am just there watching her. Her house is solemn. I can feel the sadness in the atmosphere. Aunt Mary is busy at the kitchen and she is not really talking much but as Parisa enter the house she greeted her with full of smile. Smile like Mr. McGrath showed when Parisa was sick. Mr. McGrath, on the other hand, came downstairs to see her right away because after the accident she never came home. She just called them what happened and where she is staying but ever since she never came home.

"How's my princess." Mr. McGrath said then hug her right away, "you okay?" he whispered.

Parisa smiled at him and just stare at him for a while. "I need to rest Dad."

So she went to her room and locks the door. And as she shut the door close the room suddenly became emptier. The stillness of the room is suffocating. The darkness is filled with agony that no one can bear. Except her. Then she finally cried. It is the most agonizing part. I can see her mourn for me. Her eyes are filled with thousand of pains that even I can feel. She kept this pain after that night at the hospital. After she cries really hard. You can no longer see her cry in front of others but that night I am just there seeing her weakness, seeing her breaking again. She is sitting on the floor. 

The room is really dark and she hasn't tried to open the light. Her cry is the only noise you can hear in that room. Her pain is really agonizing. She is falling to deep pain and I can't do anything. Then she fell asleep. I try to touch her face and hoping I could carry her to her bed but I can't. 

Her eyes are really tired of crying. Her breathe are really deep and slow. The pain is too loud not to notice. I felt bad leaving her. I wish I could go back in time and just propose to her at the hotel. But I guess this is really my time. Then while thinking all of those thoughts I got tired. I sit next to her. Pretending that I am touching her hair and then I try to rest my eyes for a while and think of her.

Then a light shines on my face and it blinds me for a second. My eyes started to adjust from the light and I started noticing that her room is full of light. The room is soothing and calming. Like the sunrise enters her room. The window is open and the breeze is moving the curtain slowly. The pink walls are quite charming when the light hits on it. The white ceiling makes the room really pleasing to the eyes and the carpet is really soft. My head suddenly snaps and realized that I am breathing. That I can feel the soft carpet and I can touch every stuff around me.

"I'm alive!" I said then suddenly someone hugs me from behind. It is gentle and warm. I can tell that it is Parisa because I saw her arms with a red bracelet tide on her right wrist. She is happy I can feel it but then I felt tears on my back. She is crying. That is when everything I feel turned dark, like falling in your own dream. It snaps you when you woke up. That is what I felt. I Realized that I am still dead. She holds really tight for a moment. I want to see her but I can't. Then as I look into my hands I saw it fading. I know it already, my time is up. For that moment I am wishing to never wake up or rather never go back. I really wanted to freeze this moment but I have no time. I am fading and I need to do something.

"Baby," she cried. "Please tell me this is real."

I can't look at her. I wanted to turn to her direction and kiss her but I am scared to accept the truth, scared to tell her that I am dead. Afraid to let her see me fading. So instead I touch her arms and hold it really tight. I replied to her while trying to stop myself from crying. "Baby, I love you and it will never change."

Then she woke up.