Moon Child (A Camren KidFic)

five

Camila slipped off her wedges in her doorway and threw her bag of papers to the ground. "I need wine." She stared into her living room as faded spots on the wall where picture frames use to hang stick out. Camila sighs as she takes a bottle of wine from the counter. "Maybe I should move?" She speaks out as if she will get a response. Camila is so used to having a person be home rather than an empty apartment.  

"You can stay." 

Camila jumped at the sound of his voice. "Shawn?" 

Shawn set his suitcase beside his feet. "I left a few things." Camila nodded as she rubbed her forehead glaring at her feet, too coward to meet his eyes, "right."  Shawn ran his hand through his hair, "So, you took our pictures down?" Shawn's eyes met the bottle of the wine as he remembered the three empty bottles in the kitchen. 

"Yeah." 

Shawn moved closer to Camila, "Mila..you're drinking again." Camila hid her tears and choked back a sob. "Yeah."  Shawn's stomach turned to knots. "Does Dinah or Ally know?" Camila timidly shook her head, "I haven't spoken to them since.." 

"I left?" 

"Yeah, you left." 

Camila poured a glass of wine for herself as she finally met Shawn's eyes. "Camila, you were doing so well." Camila nodded, "Even the strongest people fall."   Shawn let out a sigh, "I cannot leave you like this. I am calling Dinah." 

Camila laughed, "You care about leaving me like this now?" Camila sipped her wine, "Shawn you left me. " 

"I left because we have dated since high school, married young, and before I knew what I had in the world. I am growing, Camila. This is the first thing I am doing for myself."  

"I got sober for you. For our future kids. I am drinking for me." 

Shawn rolled his eyes, "That is not the same." He took out his phone and dialed Dinah's number. He took the bottled from Camila, "I am probably going to be late- Oh, Dinah." Shawn disappeared into the kitchen. Camila could hear him looking through various cabinets. 

Camila stared at the glass that was almost empty by now. She let her tears fall freely. "Dinah is on her way. I have a plane to- Mila?" Shawn tentatively stepped closer wrapping his arms around her frail frame. Camila sobbed, "You left me." Shawn held back his own tears, "Mila, please. You act like it was an effortless choice for me to make."  She hit him on the chest, "No, you made it look effortless." Shawn let go of her and his tear fall, "I need to go." Camila shook her head, "Of course you do." Shawn stared at Camila and almost let words leave his lips, but decided against it. He picked up his suitcase, "Goodbye Camila." 

It hurt worse the second time. 

Camila sank to the floor as sobs echoed against the walls. Dinah let herself in upon overhearing the sobs from her car. "Oh, Mila." Camila's tear-filled eyes met Dinah's, "He left, DJ. He Left. " Dinah beat herself up for not checking on her sooner. "I'm going to call your sponsor okay? Get therapy set back up?" Camila shrugged her shoulders recognizing it was going to be harder the second time.  Dinah sat with Camila with her arms around her, "You are going to get through this." Camila sniffled and continued to cry on Dinah's shoulder. 

She wanted to believe Dinah, but it appeared improbable.