DIARY - XU MINGHAO [Completed] [Under Editing]

CHAPTER 6- Enemy to Friends?

Minghao P.O.V.

After i helped Lacey to get home, i went home too and jump on my bed. I felt bored and tired, I wanted to sleep but I couldn't.

I turn myself in the side just then my eyes landed on the pink notebook resting on top of my drawer. I picked it up and turn another page. My eyes couldn't help but to read the contents, so I just read it.

Hey diary, I'm so happy I get to write here again. I just want to tell you what happened this morning in School. I was walking in the hallway when i saw Minghao crying, i dont know why but at that moment i just want to hug him and him comfort but Kyulyung did it before i could. That was kinda disappointing, I was actually planning to finally talk to him but I think his best friend could do more better than me so i just walk away trying myself not to be emotional and jealous.

I wish I was strong enough tho, but i couldn't take it, my tears start streaming to cheeks. It made me breath hardly, I tried to calm myself and but it helps nothing, so I quickly ran to the cafeteria to get some wate. I just couldn't take it anymore, my visions went black and all i can see is black.

When i woke up i was in the clinic lying on the bed then nurse walk up to me. She says "Finally, your awake i want to tell you a very important thing. It's about your heart, your heart has a problem and can't carry too much emotions so in that case you should not make yourself too surprise, scared, sad, and don't cry too much or anything that can make your heart beats so fast or else....." She sighed deeply and continue "you can die at any moment. This is not just a problem that you can ignore so you should be careful ok? Go and see a doctor, and don't worry you can be cured ok?" 

I was so confused at the moment. After i heard that i feel that i dont want to smile anymore it feels like i can't be happy anymore. I didn't tell my mom and dad about it, I was too scared that they might just ignore me, I'm not ready for that. I asked the nurse who brought me to the clinic and she says she doesn't know what his name.

Diary, you are the only one i talked about this, about my sick, can you help me? I dont know what to do. I don't know who to run to. I wanted to say thank you to the one who brought me to the clinic that time, because he gave me another chance to live.

Earlier today, I went to a doctor to check me up. He said that i can be cured if i get an operation but....it's too risky. The possibility to live is only 50% can you believe that? I'm not ready to die yet. I still want to try some things and to love someone, but how can i love someone now if my situation is like this? It would be unfair for him that i will just disappear if i die. why life is so unfair?

I feel like crying reading that page. If I were her I wouldn't be walking out of my house and just stay there. Maybe I will just stay there until I get very sad and meet the brink of death.

I wish she was strong enough not to handle all of this.

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Lacey P.O.V.

i went home and fell asleep, when i woke up it was 10:30 pm In the night. my heart hurts so much it feels like tons of needles is piercing my heart. I went down and drink water, hoping that the pain will go away but it has no use so i quickly went to my doctor.

"Lacey we have to do the operation sooner or else...you know what will happen, so tell it to your parents now" my doctor said.

"But doc, i still dont have enough courage to tell them."

"Lacey, that's why you should tell it to your parents so they can help you"

"But-"

"Lacey you just have to let your parents know so they can help you that is all you have to do"

"but I'm too scared. I couldn’t help but to think negative things, what if they just ignore me? They've been ignoring me for almost two years now. I don't want to face the truth, it's too painful."

"is that really the reason why you still don't want to do it? Or was it because you're too scared to face what could happen in the operation?" I sighed quietly as I found his statement right.

"I'm just scared to die soon...." I confessed.

"you will not die Lacey, you're overthinking." he put a hand in my shoulder. "don't worry, I promise to do my best"

"But what if your best is not enough?" I said. "what if i still die?" He got silent, he knew that I give a point. I sighed deeply and stand up "Alright thank you doc, I'll think about it first, I'll go now"

I walk back home and plop myself in my bed i pick up my phone and stared at my parents contact number.

Should i talk to them now? I mean it's been 2 years from now-... i guess i should tell them but not now, soon when I'm ready. I put my phone down, a few seconds It beeps. It was from an unknown number.

Unknown- you feeling better now?

Who's this? -Lacey

Unknown- Winwin

Oh? -Lacey

You changed name to Winwin

Winwin- how are you?

I'm fine now thanks! -Lacey

Winwin- good see you tom. ;)

wait, how did you know my number -Lacey

Winwin- secret ;)

:( -Lacey

Winwin- haha I'll tell you tom.

okie👌, bye~ -Lacey

Winwin- bye

I put my phone down again and fell asleep.

[Timie skips~ TOMORROW]

I went to my school and went straight to my locker as always and get my things for the first subject when i close my locker i saw Kyulkyung with her 2 friends behind my locker's door.

"Hi! I'm Kyulkyung" she said and smiled brightly and give me a hand

"I'm lacey" i said and took her hand and shake it a little

"And these two is....... just dont mind them" she said. "Do you want to be friends?" She said.

Friends? She must be crazy i dont even like her. But....i guess....its not a pretty good enough reason to refuse her offer she just want to be friends tho.....

"Of course no problem" i said and smiled.

"Let's, eat together later. Is that ok?" She asked

"Uhmmm ok?..."

"Good see you later" maybe she's not that bad..

But is it ok if i can be friends with my enemy?