DIARY - XU MINGHAO [Completed] [Under Editing]

CHAPTER 22- Should i do it now?

Minghao P.O.V.

"Let me guess kyulkyung?" She ask.

I want to tell her that she was the girl i adore so much but if she knew my feelings for her i know she will avoid me and she already said that if i tell her that i like her she will refuse me, but why?

"Y-yeah" i lied again. Im sorry.

Lacey P.O.V.

He was about to speak when we heard someone knock and called my name.

"Lacey?"

"Uh whos that?" I said

"Yeolie"

"Oh why are you here?"

"Can you open the door?"

"Yeah wait"

I went to the door and open it his eyes went wide when he saw minghao. Oh sh*t

"Y-yah! What are you doing here?"

"Uh-" minghao said.

"Yah! Youre so young to do that!" He said and flick my forehead.

"Ouch! Were just talking were not doing anything" i said

"Are you sure?"

"Ofcourse! she likes kyulkyung and Why would we do that?" I cant hold my tears.

"Oh sorry" he said

"Uhm excuse me ill just go to my friends if its ok for you" minghao said

"Yeah sure" chanyeol said and with that he left

"What are you doing here?" I ask the giant boy

"I just want to ask if your ok but i guess your literally ok"

"Yeah" my voice crack because i cant hold my tears anymore then i just broke down crying.

"Hey are you ok? Why are you crying?" He said and hug me. I burried my face on his chest and cry while hes just caressing my back. "Whats the matter?"

"I dont know"

"I know there is something up what is it? Tell me"

"I like him"

"Who? minghao?"

"Yeah"

"Youre crying because he likes someone else and not you?" He said and i nod. "Its ok you will find someone else" he said now caressing my head.

I know there is so many man in the world but he is the one i really like and i know hes my only strength everytime i feel like giving up. He was the only one i have when my family left me, when i have no body. I know that time he still dont know me but for me he was my family he was my love but im not his.

"Oppa im tired can i sleep here?"

"Sure wait here ill get you some comfortable clothes" he said and i nod. Later on he went back "here it was mine so it will be a little bigger than you"

"Its ok"

"Ok ill go now rest yourself ill tell them your already sleeping"

"Thank you" i said and hug him and he hug me back

"Your welcome goodnight"

"Im so happy i found you again"

"Me too, now go rest ill go now bye" he kiss my forehead and left.

I sat on the corner of the bed and stared at the clothes. He lied and broke my heart again. When will you make me happy again? When wull you notice my love?

A tear went down on my cheek and i quickly wipe it away. I change my clothes and went sleep.

I woke up and went outside. But no one was there i guess they are still sleeping. I cook breakfast and went back to the room.

I took a bath and change to my outfit yesterday and left the dorm. I text chanyeol that i already left their dorm and went home.

When i arrive my home i plop myself in the couch and thinking about what happened yesterday im so sad and stressed about it so i went to my secret place to relax myself.

I sat on the side of the lake and put my foot in the water. I sigh, i miss this place, i wish minghao will still bring me on his secret place.

I lied on the ground looking at the rose quarts and serenity colored sky.

"So beautiful" i whisper to myself
"I wish im with you right now looking at this beautiful sky" i sigh. "But that will never be happen because you want to look at this beautiful sky with the girl you love and thats not me"

I said as i close my eyes all of this is just a dream, it didnt lasts just like our life and my life it didnt lasts forever, but our differents is you can live a little longer and i cant live that longer, my life is not like yours im living hardly and you are living freely.

I open my eyes and sat up and look up at the sky. When will i feel happiness?

Tears start streaming down to my cheeks again. Should i do the operation now?