"Let's end everything."
His voice still echoeing inside my head.. and still giving me nightmares.
It's been a week and two days when he broke up with me. Just because I can't choose him and leave everything behind. Family.. Friends.. my dreams.. and my life.
Naramdaman ko na naman ang mainit na likido na nagmumula sa mga mata ko... ang paninikip ng dibdib ko na tila may dumadagan doon. Parang sinasaksak ng ilang milyong aspili at tila may isang kamay na pumipiga roon.
I heard footsteps approaching my place. I wipe my tears away and calm myself.
"Ate.. pumasok na ako.. I got tired of pressing your doorbell ... wala pa ding response.. then I check the knob... to found out na your door is not locked." Litanya ng pinsan kong si Rebel. I looked down and pretends that I am fixing the throw pillows on my sofa beds while trying my best not to cry.
I can't be weak infront of anyone especially not in front of my family.
"Oh.. I forgot siguro nung umuwi ako" then I sniff a lil.
"Ate Zen did you cry?" dali-dali syang lumapit sa akin at iniharap sa kanya..
"N-no.. of course not.. bakit naman ako iiyak? I catch a cold.. kaya ganito. Y-you know.." I lied. "What brought you here Rebelliane" pag-iiba ko.
"Ate naman.. Rebel na lang.. you know how much I want to hide my real name.. it sounds like Rebellion." Reklamo nya.
Her name is Rebelliane Hellios. One of my close cousins. She hates her name because it sounds like rebellion. They bullied her at school when she was on her elementary that's why she used Rebel. Para cool daw.
Rebel is my cousin in my mom's side first cousin to be exact...while Colei is my first cousin in dad's side.Rebel and Colei are cool together.. but they are not that close talaga. Knowing Colei. Not so friendly one!
"Fine. Rebel." I tried hard to sounds happy. "why are you here by the way?"
"Ate Krizzen Gernome! The whole clan are dead worried about you! It's been a week daw since you had a heart na magpakita sa lahat! You missed an important baquet and neglecting your royal duties. Nababaliw na kami sa kakaisip ng paraan para pagtakpan ka sa mgs elders. Kahit sa trabaho mo.. on-leave ka daw! What the hell is wrong with you Ate Zen!?" she hissed
"Sorry about that. Please tell them I'll show up soon... but not now.. I am in the middle of soul searching." I reasoned out.
"Ate Zen..."
That tone again.. I hate it.. I hate hearing and seeing them pity for me.
"Rebel.. it's not about him ok? yes maybe I am hurt..but that's not enough reason for me to loss my track.. it's just that.. I wanna find myself now... I feel a part of me is missing. I want to rev up. You know?" I explained.
I know.. my explanation is a bit unclear.. and I know.. it leads to one person pa din.. Him.
Huminga ng malalim si Rebel.
"Fine. But ate.. you have to show up sooner. I'll cover you for now. the Friaz Ice Queen is freak out earlier! Hinahanap ka nya sa akin! Gaaaad! Ate Zen! How can Mr. dela Marced stand her wife! Dapat talaga.. kayo na lang ni Kuya Sebastian e.. nakakainis ! Edi sana hindi kana nasasaktan ngayon dahil kay-" sabi nya.
"Rebel..."-I stop her. May tila kamay na pumipiga sa puso ko.. I tried hard not to show any expression para hindi mag-alala si Rebel.
"Sebastian.. loves Colei that's why.. see they still holding each other's arm.. for all this years.."
"Fine! Pero ate! Lahat nagtataka kung ano ba talagang nangyari that day ... you know.. you had a perfect relatioship.." natigilan siya ngmapansin nya ang mga luhang kaninako pa pinipigilan... huminga pa sya ng malalim...
"I know... hindi ka pa handang magkwento ... pero please if you need someone to be with... if you need someone to listen.. if you need a friend... I am here ate... we're here.. "
"I know Rebel.. thank you for that.. but i want to be the Krizzen.. the Real and fiercer Krizzen.. without anyone's help.. kaya please hayaan nyo mua ako.. I'll call you or Colie.. kung sakali man.."
"Ay ate! ako na langang tawagan mo wag nayung Yelo na yun!" anya
Napangiti ako .. Rebel and Colei? Did I said they were cool together...well insert sarcasm please. Rebel hates Colei for being a Cold.. and Colei hates Rebel for her annoying attitude..
Hindi nagtagal umalis na siya.
I thanked God for that.. I wanted to be alone..
I want to cry till the pain fade away..
I want it to let go... I want to move on...
But a part of me... wants to believe that this is a nightmare. Wherein .. when I woke up.. we're still together... I am still his.. and he is still mine.
Tears...
"Giolbrt... please.. comeback."
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Currently editing this one. Jeje days and may mga details na hindi tugma sa ibang stories. Lol
BINABASA MO ANG
Hotbreaker Series 3: Krizzen Gernome
RomansaHow did we get, so cold after all? How did we get so far from wonderful? How did we get close to the end? How did.. We fall out of love? -How Did We Get?
